An American Atheist……… (unfinished )

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INTRO

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I’VE   ALWAYS  NOTICED

  HOW  MOST  PEOPLE,  MYSELF  INCLUDED,

 SEEM  TO  HAVE  A  FEELING  OF  DISCONNECTION

FROM  THE  EARTH  AND  THE  UNIVERSE.

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MANY  OF  US  FEEL  LIKE  WE’RE  JUST  OCCUPANTS  HERE  ON  EARTH

OR  TEMPORARY  VISITORS.

WHEN  SCIENCE  IS  REALLY  TELLING  US  WE’RE

MORE  LIKE  THE  ANIMALS  AND  THE  TREES.

WHICH  ARE  PRODUCTS  OF  THE  EARTH  AND  ITS  ENVIRONMENT

AND  THE  UNIVERSE  THAT  CREATED  THEM.

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 SO  MY  ORIGINAL  INTENTION  FOR  WRITING  THIS  BOOK

 WAS  TO  TRY  TO  GET  PEOPLE

TO  SEE  AND  FEEL  MORE  OF  A  CONNECTION  TO  THE  WORLD

 AND  TO  THE  UNIVERSE  WE  LIVE  IN.

AN  EARTH  AND  A  UNIVERSE  THAT  MANY  BELIEVE

IS  RESPONSIBLE  FOR  CREATING  US.

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BUT  THEN  AS  I  BEGAN  TO  WRITE,

 I  BECAME  AWARE  OF  A  PSYCHOLOGICAL  BATTLE

GOING  ON  WITHIN  MYSELF.

A  BATTLE   BETWEEN  MY  OWN  PERSONAL  BELIEFS,

AND  THE  LAWS  OF  SCIENCE.

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AND  THAT  IS  WHAT  EVENTUALLY  LED  ME  TO  THE  QUESTION,

 HOW  DO  WE  VIEW  OURSELVES  AS  PART  OF  THE

 NATURAL  UNIVERSE.

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CHAPTER  ONE

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DARWIN

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KILL  THE  MESSENGER,

AND IF  WE  CAN’T,  LETS AT  LEAST  TRY  TO  KILL  THE  MESSAGE.

I’M  SURE  LOTS  OF  PEOPLE  WANTED  TO  BURN  DARWIN’S  RESEARCH  RIGHT  FROM  THE  BEGINNING.

BUT  BOOK  BURNING  HAD  GONE  OUT  OF  STYLE  BY  THEN,  SO  A  LARGE  GROUP  OF  OUR  SOCIETY  SPENT  THEIR  ENERGY

DISCREDITING  HIM  AND

CENSORING  HIS  WORK  AS  MUCH  AS  THEY  POSSIBLY  COULD.

AND  THEY  DID  A  PRETTY  GOOD  JOB  TOO.

AND  TO  ALL  THOSE  GROUPS,  ORGANIZATIONS,

  RELIGIONS  AND  INDIVIDUALS

WHO  ARE  STILL  PERPETUATING  THIS  KIND  OF  SCIENTIFIC  CENSORSHIP,

I  WOULD  JUST  LIKE  TO  SAY,

FUCK  YOU  ALL,

AND  THE  UNICORN  YOU  ROAD  IN  ON.

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SO  ANYWAY,

I  THOUGHT  IT  WOULD  APROPOS  TO  START  OFF  WITH  MY  FAVORITE

CONTROVERSIAL  FIGURE,  CHARLES  DARWIN.

SOMETHING  DARWIN  WROTE  IN ONE  OF  HIS  NOTEBOOKS

  REALLY  GETS  TO  HEART  OF  THE  PROBLEM  ABOUT  MANS

  RELATIONSHIP  TO  NATURE.

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THIS  IS  WHAT  DARWIN  WROTE  IN  ONE  OF  HIS  NOTE  BOOKS,

 “ONE  DESERVES  NO  CREDIT  FOR  ANYTHING ….. NOR  OUT  ONE  TO  BLAME”

THAT’S  A  PRETTY  RADICAL  STATEMENT,  THAT  FLYS  IN  THE  FACE

OF  MOST  RELIGIONS  AND  MOST  PEOPLES  VIEW

 ABOUT  HUMAN  NATURE.

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ANYWAY,

  DARWIN  HAD  A  KIND  OF  DETERMINISTIC  VIEW  OF  THINGS.

   BASICALLY,  DETERMINISM  IS  THE  BELIEF

THAT  MAN  IS  SO  INTERCONNECTED  INTO  NATURE

 AND  IT’S  CAUSES  AND  EFFECTS,

 THAT  WE  COULDN’T  HELP  BECOMING  THE  PEOPLE  WE

ARE,  AND  CAN’T  HELP  BEHAVING  THE  WAY  WE  BEHAVE,  GOOD  OR  BAD.

WHAT  IT’S  BASICALLY  SAYING

 IS  THAT  MAN  DOESN’T  HAVE  ANY  FREE  WILL.

AND  AS  IT  TURNS  OUT  THERE’S  THIS  LONG  ONGOING  DEBATE

 ABOUT  WHETHER  OR  NOT  FREE  WILL  EVEN  EXISTS.

AND  THOUGH  I  DON’T  REALLY  AGREE  WITH  THE  THEORY,

THERE  ARE  PLENTY  OF  PEOPLE  WITH  A  HELL  OF  LOT  HIGHER  IQ’S  THAN  ME,  THAT  DO  BELIEVE  IT.

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BUT,

MY  INTENTION  FOR  WRITING  THIS  BOOK  ISN’T  A  ARGUMENT  FOR

 OR  AGAINST  FREE  WILL.

MY  INTENSION  IN  WRITING  THIS  BOOK  IS  MORE  OF  AN  INVESTIGATION

INTO  HOW  THE  AVERAGE  PERSON  VIEWS

 THEIR  CONNECTION  TO  NATURE  AND  THE  UNIVERSE.

  AND  ALSO  HOW   WE  VIEW  AND  JUSTIFY  OUR  SPIRITUAL  BELIEFS

IN  AN  AGE  WHERE  SCIENCE

HAS  SHOWN  US  SO  MANY  FACTS  WHICH  ARE  OFTEN

CONTRARY  TO  THOSE  BELIEFS.

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NOW  IF  I  LIVED  TWO  THOUSAND  YEARS  AGO,

  I  PROBABLY  WOULD’T  HAVE  EVER

 QUESTIONED  MY  OWN  SPIRITUAL  BELIEFS.

BUT  TODAY  I  FIND  IT  A  LITTLE  DIFFICULT  TO  IGNORE

  THE  LAWS  OF  SCIENCE.

AS  WELL  AS  ALL  THE  NEW  SCIENTIFIC  FINDINGS

  ABOUT  HUMAN  EVOLUTION

 AND  THE  REALITY  OF  THE  NATURAL  WORLD  WE  LIVE  IN.

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HERE’S  A  LITTLE  FLASH  BACK.

WHEN  I  WENT  TO  SCHOOL  WE  BREEZED  OVER  THE  IDEA

  OF  HUMAN  EVOLUTION  FOR  ABOUT  THIRTY  SECONDS,

  AND  THEN  THE  TEACHER  PRESSED  THE  ISSUE

  THAT  IT  WAS  REALLY  JUST  A  THEORY.

BUT  IT  ALWAYS  STUCK  IN  MIND,

  NOT  BECAUSE  I  GAVE  A  SHIT  ABOUT  EVOLUTION,

HEY  I  WAS  THIRTEEN…. I  HAD  OTHER  THINGS  ON  MY  MIND,

BUT  WHAT  REALLY  STRUCK  ME  WAS  THE  WAY  THE  SCIENCE  TEACHER  WAS  BEING  SO  CAREFUL  IN  THE  WAY  HE  PRESENTED  THIS  INFORMATION  TO  US.

HE  WAS  CLEARLY  AFRAID.

I  GUESS  THAT  WAS  FIRST  TIME  I  WAS  AWARE  OF  THE  CENSORSHIP

SPURED  ON  BY  RELIGIOUS  BELIEFS .

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BUT  BACK  TO  THE  DETERMINISM  CONTROVERSY.

LONG  STORY  SHORT,  WHAT  DETERMINISM  SUGGESTS,

  IS  THAT  WE  DON’T  HAVE  ANY  FREE  WILL.

WHICH  ACTUALLY  MEANS  THAT  OUR  DECISIONS  ARE  REALLY  BEING  MADE  FOR  US,

AND  WE  ONLY  “THINK”  WE  ARE  MAKING  THEM.

IT’S  ACTUALLY  A  VERY  DISTURBING  THEORY.

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NOW  THE  THEORY  THAT  FREE  WILL  IS  AN  ILLUSION,

CAN’T  REALLY  BE  COMPLETELY  PROVEN,  THANK  GOD…..  PUN  INTENDED,

BECAUSE  WE  WOULD  NEED  THE  TECHNOLOGY  TO  RUN

THE  ENTIRE  UNIVERSE  IN  REVERSE

  ALL  THE  WAY  BACK  TO  THE  BIG  BANG,

 AND  THEN  SET  IT  IN  MOTION  FORWARD  AGAIN.

 AND  THEN  SEE  IF  EVERYTHING  HAPPENED  EXACTLY  THE  SAME  WAY

AS  THE  FIRST  TIME,

 INCLUDING  ALL  OF  OUR  DECISIONS  AND  CHOICES

WE’VE  EVER  MADE.

NOW  WOULDN’T  THAT  BE  A  FUCKING  A  TRIP.

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SEE,  THE  IDEA  IS  THIS,

THROUGH  A  SERIES  OF  CAUSES  AND  EFFECTS,

  ALL  THOSE  CHOICES  AND  DECISIONS  WE  MAKE  ALL  DAY  LONG,

  ARE  ACTUALLY  BEING  MADE  FOR  US,

BY  ZILLIONS  OF  CAUSES  THAT  EFFECT  OUR  DECISIONS.

NOW  THAT’S  NOT  THE  BEST  DEFINITION,

BUT  I  THINK  YOU  CAN  CATCH  MY  DRIFT.

TRY  TO  THINK  OF  IT  LIKE  THE  DOMINO  EFFECT

BUT   A  LOT  MORE  COMPLICATED.

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AND  IF  THE  THEORY  IS  TRUE,

  IT  BASICALLY  MAKES  US  SEEM  LIKE  WE’RE  A  BUNCH

  OF  FUCKING  ROBOTS,

WITH  NO  RESPONSIBILITY  FOR  OUR  ACTIONS.

 NOW  I’LL  ADMIT  THAT  THAT’S  PRETTY  FUCKED.

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NOW  THERE’S  ALSO  ANOTHER  VIEW  WHICH

  IS  A  LITTLE  EASIER  TO  SWALLOW,

CALLED  “SOFT  DETERMINISM”  WHICH  ALMOST  SAYS  THE  SAME  THING,

 EXCEPT  WE  SOMEHOW  GET  OUR  FREE  WILL  BACK.

AND  THEN  THERE’S  PROBABLY   A  LOT  OF  OTHER  VARIATION

  ON  THE  THEORY,

WHICH  I  REALLY  DON’T  WANT  TO  GET  INTO.

IT  WILL  ONLY  DRIVE  ME  CRAZY  THINKING  ABOUT  IT,

 AND  I  CAN  DO  THAT  ON  MY  OWN  TIME.

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BUT  WHAT  I  REALLY  WANT  THIS  BOOK  TO  BE  ABOUT

  IS  MORE  OF  A  PERSONAL  VIEW

  ABOUT  HOW  WE  SEE  OURSELVES  AS  PART  OF  THIS  UNIVERSE.

AND  ALSO  WHY  IS  THAT  SO  MANY  OF  US  FEEL  A  DISCONNECTION

FROM  THE  EARTH  AND THE  UNIVERSE.

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CHAPTER

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WHAT  IF  A  LIER  TELLS  THE  TRUTH.

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IF  A  LIER  TELLS  THE  TRUTH  IT’S  STILL  THE  TRUTH

AND  ON  THE  FLIP  SIDE,  IF  AN  HONEST  PERSON  TELLS  A  LIE,

WELL,  IT’S  STILL  A  LIE.

I  FEEL  THE  NEED  TO  MAKE  THAT  POINT.

BECAUSE  SOMETIME  TO  LIVE  A  WORLD  WHERE  INSTEAD  OF

LOOKING  AT  THE  FACTS

  WE  LOOK  AT  THE  PERSON  OR  PERSONS

SAYING  THEM.

BUT  THAT’S  TOTALLY  FUCKING  RIDICULOUS,

 A  FACT  IS  SIMPLY  A  FACT.

SO  I  COULD  BE  A  TOTAL  FUCKING  IDIOT,

BUT  IF  WHAT  I’M  SAYING  IS  TRUE,

THEN  IT’S  TRUE.

SO  ANYWAY,

I  TOLD  A  FRIEND  OF  MINE  I  WANTED  TO  WRITE  THIS  BOOK  EXPLAINING

HOW  I  WAS  A  PRAYING  ATHEIST,  WHO  AT  TIMES  MAY  TURN  TO  THE  IDEA  OF  A  HIGHER  POWER.

 AND  HE  TOLD  ME  IT  WAS  A  FUCKING  RIDICULOUS  IDEA.

THE  REASON  BEING  THAT  THE  WHOLE  IDEA  OF  AN  ATHEIST

 IS  SOMEONE  WHO  DOESN’T  BELIEVE  IN  A  GOD  OR  PRAYING  TO  ONE.

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BUT  I  TOLD  HIM  I  DIDN’T  COMPLETELY  AGREE,

AND  HERE’S  WHY.

IT’S  BASICALLY  BECAUSE  I  DON’T  VALUE  BELIEFS,  INCLUDING  MY  OWN.

SOME  BELIEFS  HAVE  BEEN  INGRAINED  IN  OUR  MIND

 FROM  THE  MOMENT  WE’RE  BORN,

AND IT  WOULDN’T  SURPRISE  ME

 IF  ONE  OF  THE  FIRST  WORDS  THAT  LAID  UPON  OUR  VIRGIN  EARS

 WAS  THE  WORD

  “GOD”.

SO  TO  PUT  IT  BLUNTLY,

I  BELIEVE   WE’VE  BEEN  FUCKING  BRAINWASHED

RIGHT  FROM  THE  BEGINNING,  AND  FOR  SOME  OF  US,

 THOSE  BELIEFS  AREN’T  THAT  EASILY  DISCARDED.

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THERE  ARE  ALSO  SOME  EVOLUTIONARY  SHRINKS  OUT  THERE,

 WHO  SAY  THAT  SOME  OF  OUR  BELIEFS  ARE  JUST  HIGHLY

  EVOLVED  SOCIAL  SYSTEMS,

 THAT  HELP  GROUPS  OF  PEOPLE  BOND  TOGETHER  IN  A  WAY  THAT  AIDS  IN  OUR  SURVIVAL  ON  THE  PLANET.

AND  THATS  THE  MAIN  REASON  THESE  BELIEFS  HAVE  SURVIVED.

WHETHER  THOSE  BELIEFS  ARE  TRUE  OR  NOT,

HAS  NOTHING  TO  DO  WITH  IT.

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SO  THERE’S  PLENTY  OF  EVIDENCE   SUPPORTING  THE  IDEA

 THAT  THERE  IS  NO  REALITY  TO  OUR  RELIGIOUS  AND  SPIRITUAL  BELIEFS.

AND  AT  THE  SAME  TIME  THERE  SEEMS  TO  BE  EVIDENCE

 SUPPORTING  THE  IDEA  THAT  THESE  BELIFS

  MAY  ALSO  SERVE  US  VERY  WELL.

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I  WAS  TALKING  TO  A  FRIEND  OF  MINE  ABOUT  HER  SPIRITUAL  BELIEFS,  AND  SHE  SAID  TO  ME,

 “YES,  BUT  I  REALLY  BELIEVE  THEM”

AND  THAT  IS  THE  CASE  ABOUT  OUR  BELIEFS,

  OF  COURSE  WE  BELIEVE  THEM.

AND  FOR  GOOD  REASON,  THEY  MAY  SERVE  US  VERY  WELL,

AND  THEY  MAY  SERVE  OUR  LOVED  ONES

 AND  MAYBE  EVEN  SERVE  ALL  OF  MANKIND  ON  SOME  LEVEL.

OR  MAYBE  THEY’VE  OUT  LIVED  THEIR  WELCOME.

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AND  SOMETIMES  OUR  BELIEFS  MAY  ACTUALLY  BE  TRUE.

BUT  NOT  ALWAYS.

AND  IT’S  A  SIMPLE  FACT  THAT  THOUGH

  WE  MAY  HAVE  VERY  STRONG  BELIEFS

  ON  SOMETHING,  THEY  CAN  STILL  BE  TOTALLY  FALSE.

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SO  HERE’S  MY  PERSONAL  DILEMMA.

I  HAVE  SOME  BELIEFS  THAT  I  THINK  HELP  ME

AND  THEY  MAKE  ME  FEEL  GOOD  TOO.

 AND  I  THINK  THEY  MAY  ALSO  HELP  MY  FAMILY,  FRIENDS

AND  SOCIETY  IN  SOME  WAYS.

MAYBE  JUST  BECAUSE  THEY  GIVE  ME  A  MORE

ACCEPTING  AND  TOLERABLE  ATTITUDE.

AND  YET  ALL  THE  FACTS  POINT  TO  THE  REALITY  THAT  THESE  BELIEFS

ARE  BASED  ON  A  LIE.

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FOR  ME,  BELIEF  IN  A  HIGHER  POWER  SEEMS  TO  COME  SECOND  NATURE.

MY  INTUITION  AND  MY  GUT  TELL  ME  THERE  IS  A  GOD  OF  SORTS.

AND  AT  TIMES,  FAITH  AND  PRAYER  JUST  SEEM  TO  COME

OUT  OF  ME  NATURALLY.

KIND  OF  LIKE  TAKING  A  SHIT…..

DO  YOU  THINK  THAT’S  A  BAD  ANALOGY,  GET  OVER  IT.

IT’S  ACTUALLY  A  PERFECT  ONE

BECAUSE  TAKING  A  SHIT  IS  ONE  OF  THE  MOST  NATURAL  THINGS

A  HUMAN  BEING  CAN  EVER  DO.

YOU  PROBABLY  DON’T  LIKE  TO  TALK  ABOUT  SHIT

  BECAUSE  IT  MAKES  YOU

FEEL  LIKE  A  DIRTY  ANIMAL.

BUT  THE  FACT  IS  THAT  SHIT  IS  PART  OF  NATURE

AND A  BIGGER  PART  THAN  WE  CARE  TO  ADMIT.

BUT  ENOUGH  SHITTY  TALK.

BUT  MY  POINT  IS  THAT  WHEN  I  PRAY,  OR  TURN  TO  GOD,

IT  JUST  COMES  OUT  OF  ME…..

I  CAN’T  HELP  IT.

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SO  FOR  ME,  GOD  AND  PRAYER  FEEL  VERY  NATURAL.

HOW  THAT  CAME  ABOUT,  IS  NOT  REALLY  IMPORTANT  AT  THIS  POINT.

IT’S  JUST  THE  WAY  IT  IS  AND

I’VE  ACCEPTED  THAT.

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BUT  HERE  IS  THE  MAIN  POINT  I  WANT  TO  MAKE.

NOW  PAUSE  FOR  A  MOMENT  AND  THINK  ABOUT  WHAT  I’M  SAYING.

WHAT  I’M  SUGGESTING  IS ……

DON’T  BELIEVE  YOUR  OWN  BELIEFS.

IT’S  AS  SIMPLE  AS  THAT

BECAUSE  THEY’RE  OFTEN  WRONG.

AND  IN  SPITE  OF  A  GUT  FEELING  AND  OUR  HIGHLY

EVOLVED  INTUITION  AND  THE  FACT  THAT  WE  MAY  FEEL

VERY  STRONGLY  ABOUT  A  PARTICULAR  BELIEF,

IT  MAY  STILL  BE  TOTALLY  WRONG.

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I’M  SAYING  YOU  SHOULD  BELIEVE  SOMEONE  ELSE’S  BELIEF  EITHER.

I’M  SAYING  LET  THE  FACTS  BE  YOUR  GUIDE,

IN  SPITE  OF  YOUR  BELIEFS.

SO  WHAT  I’M  SAYING  IS,  THAT  TO  TRUST  YOUR  BELIEFS

OVER  THE  FACTS,  MAY  VERY  WELL  BE  A  DANGEROUS

AND  IGNORANT  WAY  TO  LIVE.

SOMETIMES  THE  WORD  “IGNORANT”  SEEMS  TO  SUGGEST  STUPIDITY.

BUT  IT  ALSO  MEANS  UNINFORMED.

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IF  EVERYONE  IS  TELLING  ME  THAT

  SOMEONE  IS  STANDING  BEHIND  ME,

I  WOULD  PROBABLY  BELIEVE  THEM,

AND  AFTER  A  TIME  I  MAY  EVEN  START  TO  FEEL  VERY  STRONGLY  THAT

SOMEONE  IS  STANDING  BEHIND  ME.

IT’S  NOT  MY  FAULT,

 I’M  WAS  JUST  IGNORANT  TO  THE  SIMPLE  FACT  THAT

THERE  WAS  NEVER  ANYONE  STANDING  BEHIND  ME.

AND  BELIEFS  ARE  SOMETIMES  GIVEN  TO  US

IN  MUCH  THE  SAME  WAY.

BELIEFS  ARE  GIVEN  TO  US  AND  PUSHED  ON  US  AND

THEN  REINFORCED  ON  A  REGULAR  BASIS.

AND  HALF  THE  TIME  WE  DON’T  EVEN  REALIZE  IT.

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NOW  WHY  I  SEEM  TO  HAVE  SUCH  A  STRONG  FAITH  IN  SOMETHING

THAT  GOES  AGAINST  MY  BETTER  JUDGEMENT  AND  MY  COMMON  SENSE,

I  REALLY  CAN’T  EXPLAIN.

MAYBE  IT’S  GENETIC  OR  A  MENTAL  FLAW,  WHO  KNOWS.

AND  SOME  PEOPLE  WILL  SAY  I’M  JUST  A  CLOSET  CHRISTIAN.

AND  MAYBE  I  AM,  BUT  THE  REAL  POINT  I’M  TRYING  TO  MAKE

IS  THAT  I’M  CHOOSING  TO  PUT  THE  FACTS  FIRST,

AND  BELIEFS  SECOND.

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SO  I  GUESS  I’M  A  HYPOCRITE,

I  CAN  LIVE  WITH  THAT.

SO  I’M  NOT  SAYING  I  DON’T  BELIEVE  IN  GOD.

I’M  SAYING  I  DON’T  BELIEVE  IN  BELIEFS

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SO  MAYBE  I’M  A  HYPOCRITE  TRYING  TO  HAVE  HIS  CAKE

  AND  EAT  IT  TOO.

CLAIMING  TO  BE  AN  ATHEIST  WHO  WANTS  TO  BELIEVE  IN  GOD

WHEN  IT  SUITS  ME.

BUT  WHAT  I’M  SAYING  IS  THAT  AS  INTELLIGENT  BEINGS,  WE  SHOULD

NOT  ALWAYS  TRUST  OUR  BELIEFS.

ESPECIALLY  WHEN  THEY  IGNORE  THE  LAWS  OF  SCIENCE.

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I  GO  TO  THE  MOVIES  TOO,  AND  I  FIND  IT  ENJOYABLE

  AND  COMFORTING  AND  IT  MAKES  ME  FEEL  GOOD.

THE  STORY  SEEMS  SO  REAL  AS  THOUGH  ITS  REALLY  HAPPENING.

AND  FOR  THAT  MOMENT,  I  BELIEVE  IT….. COMPLETELY.

*

BUT  THOSE  IMAGES  ON  THAT  SCRENE  ARE  A  LIE,  THEY’RE  FAKE,

SO  I  LOOK  AT  PRAYER  AND  A  BELIEF  IN  GOD  IN  THE  SAME  LIGHT.

I  MAY  PARTAKE  IN  IT  AT  TIMES,  BECAUSE  I’M  DOWN

  AND  BECAUSE  IT  MAKES  ME  FEEL  GOOD

AND  IT  MAY  EVEN  HELP  ME  ON  A  PHYSICAL  AND  AN  EMOTIONAL  LEVEL.

AND  IT  MAY  EVEN  GIVE  ME  A  SENSE  OF  SECURITY,

AND  A  SENSE  OF  WELL  BEING.

 BUT  I  CAN  HONESTLY  SAY  THAT  I  DON’T  TRUST

  THAT  BELIEF  TO  BE  TRUE.

SO  FOR  ME  IT’S  A  KIND  OF  PSYCHOLOGICAL  CRUTCH

  THAT  MAKES  ME  FEEL  GOOD,

A  KIND  OF  MENTAL  MASTURBATION.

*

SO  TO  MOVE  FORWARD  A  LITTLE,  THE  FIRST  THING  I  LEARNED

WHEN  I  DECIDED  TO  BECOME  AN  ATHEIST,

 WAS  THAT  I  NEEDED

TO  LOOK  TO  NATURE  AND  THE  UNIVERSE  FOR  THE  ANSWERS  TO

WHAT  I  AM  AND  WHERE  I  CAME  FROM.

*

I  USED  TO  WRITE  LITTLE  QUOTES,  AND  ONE  DAY  I  CAME  UP  WITH  THIS  ONE,

 ” NATURE  CREATED  STUPIDITY,  I’M  JUST  THE  MIDDLE  MAN”

KIND  OF  A  STUPID  QUOTE,  THAT  I  DON’T  COMPLETELY  BELIEVE,

BUT  IT  DID  SPUR  THE  IDEA  FOR  THIS  BOOK.

*

NOW,  I  KNOW  IT’S  A  COP  OUT   BLAMING  NATURE  FOR  MY  STUPIDITY,

AND  IT’S  A  DETERMINISTIC  POINT  OF  ABOUT  NATURE.

 BUT  THERE  MAY  BE  SOME  TRUTH  TO  IT.

ONE  OF  THE  HARDEST  THINGS  FOR  A  HUMAN  BEING  TO  ADMIT  IS  THAT  THEY  MAY  BE  STUPID.

BUT  FOR  ME  I  OBSERVE  STUPIDITY  AS  BEING  PART  OF THE  HUMAN  RACE,

 JUST  LIKE  INTELLIGENCE  IS.

 IT’S  JUST  ANOTHER  ONE  OF  OUR  MANY  QUALITIES  HUMAN  BEINGS  POSESS.

*

WELL  ANYWAY,  MY  THOUGHT  IS  THAT  IF  WE  COULD  EXCEPT  OUR  STUPIDITY

AS  BEING  PART  OF  HUMAN  NATURE  THEN  PERHAPS

 WE  COULD  RISE  ABOVE  IT,

OR  AT LEAST  SEE  IT  AS  A  HANDICAP  AND  ADJUST  ACCORDINGLY.

THE  WAY  ANYONE  WITH  A  HANDICAP  WOULD  DO.

*

SO  FOR  ME,  I’VE  ACKNOWLEDGED  MY  BELIEFS  IN  GOD,  AS  A  HANDICAP  OF  SORTS,

OR  AS  AN  ACT  OF  STUPIDITY  THAT  I  MAY  OCCASIONALLY  INDULGE  IN.

NOW  I’M  NOT  SAYING  THAT  IT’S  WRONG  TO  HAVE  SOME  BELIEFS.

I  JUST  THINK  IT’S  WRONG  WHEN  WE  CAN  NO  LONGER

SEE  THE  DIFFERENCE  BETWEEN  OUR  BELIEFS  AND  THE  FACTS.

*

SO  IF  YOU  READ  ON,  TRY  TO  REMEMBER  THE  DIFFERENCE  BETWEEN  A  FACT

AND  A  BELIEF.

AS  WELL  AS  A  BELIEF  BASED  ON  FACTS,

AS  OPPOSED  TO  A  BELIEF  BASED  ON  OTHER  BELIEFS.

BECAUSE  THER’S  A  VERY  BIG  DIFFERENCE.

*

CHAPTER

“THE  STORY  OF  THE  BLUE  PELICAN”

*

I  USED  TO  TELL  SOME  OF  MY  BELIEVER  FRIENDS  THIS  RIDICULOUS  STORY,

IN  HOPES  OF  SHOWING  THEM,  HOW  RIDICULOUS  THEIR  BELIEFS  REALLY  WERE.

AND  HOW  THEIR  BELIEFS  LACKED  ANY  FACTS  AT  ALL.

I  WOULD  TELL  THEM  THAT  I  WAS  REALLY  A  BLUE  PELICAN

WRAPPED  IN  THIS  HUMAN  SUIT  WHICH  I  CREATED  AND  WHEN  THIS

HUMAN  BODY  DIED  I  WOULD  JUST  FLY  AWAY.  BUT  YOU  CAN’T  SEE  ME

BECAUSE  I’M  MADE  OUT  OF   SOMETHING  THAT

YOU  CAN’T  SEE,  FEEL  OR  TOUCH.

NOW  AS  RIDICULOUS  AS  THIS  STORY  SOUNDS,  IT’S  ACTUALLY  THE

FOUNDATION  OF  MANY  SPIRITUAL  BELIEFS.

IT’S  BASICALLY  SAYING  THAT  SOMETHING  EXISTS,  BECAUSE  YOU  CAN’T

PROVE  IT  DOESN’T.

AND  YOU  CAN’T  EVER  PROVE  IT  DOESN’T  BECAUSE  YOU  CAN’T  FIND  IT,

BECAUSE  SPIRITUALITY  HAS  CREATED  ITS  OWN  LAWS  WHICH  DON’T

ALWAYS  FOLLOW  THE  LAWS  OF  NATURE  AND  SCIENCE.

*

SO  IF  IT’S  POSSIBLE TO  TRY  TO  USE  FACTS  TO  SUPPORT  YOUR  BELIEFS,

RATHER  THAN  A  LACK  OF  THEM.

IN  OTHER  WORDS  TRY  REALIZE  THAT  JUST  BY  SAYING  YOU  CAN’T  DISPROVE

SOMETHING,  DOESN’T  MAKE  SOMETHING  TRUE,  “LIKE  MY  BLUE  PELICAN”,

*

“THE  TRUTH  SHALL  SET  YOU  FREE”

*

WHY  WRITE  A  BOOK  TRYING  TO  CONVINCE  PEOPLE  TO  BECOME  ATHEISTS ?

WELL  IT’S  FUNNY  THAT  IT  WAS  ACTUALLY  A  SPIRITUAL  QUOTE  THAT  PUT  ME  ON  THIS  QUEST.

I  REALLY  ONLY  SOUGHT  AFTER  THE  TRUTH  BECAUSE  I  THOUGHT

BECAUSE  I  THOUGHT  IT  WOULD  SET  ME  FREE.

BUT  THEN  I  DISCOVERED  HOW

KNOWING  THE  TRUTH  CHANGES  THE  WAY  HUMAN  BEHAVE.

*

  SO  IMAGINE  IF  WE  STILL

THOUGHT  THE  EARTH  WAS  FLAT  AND  YOU  COULD  FALL  OFF  THE  EDGE.

WE  MAY  HAVE  NEVER  SAILED  TO  NEW  SHORE.

*

SO  THE  TRUTH  AS  WELL  AS  FACTS  AND  EVEN  BELIEFS,  WILL  CHANGE  THE  WAY

WE  VIEW  THE  WORLD  AND  WILL  INVARIABLY  CHANGE  OUR  BEHAVIOR.

SO  WHAT  HAPPENED  TO  ME  WHEN  I  STARTED  TO  MOVE  MORE  TOWARD  FACTS

AND  AWAY  FROM  BELIEFS,  WAS  THAT  I  STARTED  TO  LOOK  TO  SCIENCE  FOR

THE  ANSWERS  TO  WHAT  A  HUMAN  BEING  IS  AND  WHERE  WE  CAME  FROM.

AND  THE  FIRST  THING  I  DISCOVERED  WAS  THAT  WE  ARE  ALL  VERY  MUCH  CONNECTED

TO  OUR  ENVIRONMENT  ON  EVERY  LEVEL.

*

CHAPTER

*

“SEARCHING  FOR  SOME  TRUTH”

*

JUST  FOR  THE  RECORD  I  HAVE  TO  SAY  THAT  AS  AN  ATHEIST  I  HAVE  RENOUNCE

MY  BELIEF  IN  GOD  AS  WELL  AS  ANGELS  AND  SPIRITS.

BUT…..  SOMETIMES  I  MAY  TALK  TO  MY  DEAD  FATHER,

AND WHEN  I’M  FEELING  REALLY  LOUSEY  I  MAY  PRAY  TO  A  GOD  THAT  I  HOPE  EXISTS.

NOW  YOU’LL  PROBABLY  SAY,  I’M  NO  ATHEIST.

BUT  I  WILL  DECLARE  THAT  I  AM  ATHEIST,

I’M  JUST  NOT  A  VERY  GOOD  ONE,

AND  I  WASN’T  A  VERY  GOOD  CHRISTIAN  EITHER,  THOUGH  I  MAY  HAVE  TRIED,

AND  I  FAILED  AS  A  ZEN  BUDDHIST  TOO,

TURNS  OUT  I  THINK  WAY  TOO  MUCH.

*

SO,

IN  MY  SEARCH  FOR  ENLIGHTENMENT  OR  TRUTH,

I  READ  THE  TRADITIONAL  RELIGIOUS  BOOKS.

AND  THEN  SOME  UNTRADITIONAL  RELIGIOUS  BOOKS.

  AND  I’LL  ADMIT  TO  READING  A  FEW  TOO  MANY  PHILOSOPHY  BOOKS,

AND  WAY  TOO  MANY  ZEN  BOOKS.

BUT  I  DID  BECOME  ENLIGHTENED  TO  ONE  IMPORTANT  FACT,

AND  THATS  THE  FACT  THAT  WHEN  IT  COMES  TO  THOSE  BIG  QUESTIONS  IN  LIFE,

NO  ONE  HAS  THE  ANSWERS.

*

AND  IF  THEY  TELL  YOU  THEY  DO,

WELL  THEN  THEIR  PROBABLY  FULL  OF  SHIT.

*

 EVEN  SCIENCE  IS  STILL  UNABLE  TO  ANSWER  MANY  OF  THOSE  BIG  QUESTIONS  ABOUT  LIFE.

QUESTIONS  LIKE,  WHY  ARE  WE  HERE.

WHAT  IS  OUR  PLACE  IN  THE  UNIVERSE ?

WHERE  ARE  WE  GOING ?

DO  WE  HAVE  A  PURPOSE ?

AND  WHAT  EXACTLY  ARE  WE ?

 *

 MAYBE  SCIENCE  WILL  FIND  THE  ANSWERS  TO  THESE  QUESTIONS  SOMEDAY.

 BUT  THERE  IS  A  GOOD  CHANCE  I’LL  BE  DEAD  BY  THEN.

SO  I  LOOKED  TO  RELIGION,  PHILOSOPHY,  BUDHISM,  SCIENCE,  DARWIN

AND  ANY  OTHER  PERSON  OR  GROUP  THAT  CLAIMED  KNOWLEDGE

OF  THESE  BIG  QUESTIONS.

*

I  WOULD  OFTEN  READ  A  FEW  DIFFERENT  BOOKS  AT  ONCE.

NOT  BECAUSE  I’M  A  GENIUS,  BUT  BECAUSE  I  GET  BORED  EASILY.

SO  ONE  DAY  WHILE  READING  A  FEW  DIFFERENT  BOOKS  ABOUT

  BUDDHIST  PHILOSOPHY,  ZEN  BUDDHISM  AND  DARWINS  LIFE  AND  RESEARCH.

I  BEGAN  TO  TAKE  A  DIFFERENT  LOOK  AT  THE  “WAY”  I  OBSERVED

 THE  NATURE  OF  OUR  WORLD.

*

I  BEGAN  TO  SEE  A  COMMON  THREAD

 BETWEEN  HOW  DARWIN  AND  A  ZEN  MASTER  MIGHT  OBSERVE  THE  WORLD.

 AND  FOR  ME,  DARWIN  BECAME  A  KIND  OF  ZEN   MASTER.

IT  WASN’T  JUST  WHAT  HE  DISCOVERED,  IT  WAS  THE  WAY  HE  DISCOVERED  IT.

LIKE  A  ZEN  MASTER  HE  LET  THE  WORLD  REFLECT  THE  TRUTH  ON  HIM,

 HE  WATCHED  AND  WAITED  AND  OBSERVED.

 HE  LOOKED  AT  ALL  THE  FACTS  AND  WHAT  WAS  HAPPENING.

*

AND  I  THINK  HE  LET  THE  TRUTH  REVEAL  ITSELF  TO  HIM.

 RATHER  THAN  DECIDING  WHAT  THE  TRUTH  WAS,  AND  THEN  TRYING  TO  PROVE  IT.

IT  SEEMED  AS  THOUGH  HE  WAS  ABLE  TO  PUT  ALL  HIS  BELIEFS  HIS  DESIRES  AND  HIS  EGO  ASIDE.

AND  THEN  ACCEPT  THE  FACTS,  WHETHER  HE  LIKED  THEM  OR  NOT.

*

AND  I  HAVE  A  FEELING,  EVEN   IF  HE  DIDN’T  BELIEVE  WHAT  HE  FOUND  TO  BE  TRUE,

  IT  WOULDN’T  OF  REALLY  MATTERED  TO  HIM.

BECAUSE   I  THINK  HE  VALUED  THE  FACTS  AND  THE  TRUTH

 MORE  THAN  HE  VALUED  HIS  OWN  BELIEFS  AND  DESIRES.

*

SO  FOR  ME,  THAT  WAS  THE  QUALITY  I  WANTED  TO  HAVE.

I  WANTED  TO  TRY  TO  STAND  ASIDE,  OUT  OF  THE  WAY

 AND  SEE  IF  THE  TRUTH  WOULD  MAYBE  PRESENT  ITSELF.

REGARDLESS  OF  WHAT  I  DESIRED  OR  BELIEVED.

SO  THAT  WAS  THE  IDEAL  ATTITUDE  I  WAS  TRYING  TO  GROOM,  BUT  I  FOUND

 IT  WASN’T  AS  EASY  AS  I  THOUGHT  IT  WOULD  BE.

*

BUT  EITHER  WAY,  I  DECIDED

  TO  TRY  AND  PUT  MY  OPINIONS  AND  MY  BELIEFS  ASIDE,  BEST  I  COULD,

AND  I  ALSO  TRIED  VERY  HARD  TO  PUT  MY  INSTINCTS,  MY  INTUITION

 AND  MY  FEELINGS  SECOND  TO  THE  FACTS.

*

SO,  THE  QUESTION,

WHAT  AM  I  OR  WHAT  ARE  WE,

HAS  ALWAYS  BEEN  KIND  OF  AN  OBSESSION  OF  MINE.

WELL… ONE  OF  MY  OBSESSIONS.

I  ALWAYS  TOOK  AN  INTEREST  IN  WHAT  THINGS  WERE  MADE  OF,  AND  THE  MATERIALS

THEY  WERE  MADE  FROM.

AND  I  WAS  ALSO  FASCINATED  HOW  THE  HUMAN  BODY  WORKED.

*

I  ALSO  BECAME  CURIOUS  ABOUT  HOW  THE  HUMAN  MIND  WORKED.

STUFF  LIKE,  HOW  DO  WE  REMEMBER  THINGS  AND  HOW  DOES  THE  BRAIN

STORE  ALL  THOSE  MEMORIES,  AND  WHAT  IS  CONSCIOUSNESS,

AND  I  ALWAYS  WONDERED  HOW  DREAMING  WAS  POSSIBLE.

HOW  CAN  WE  ACTUALLY  SEE  ALL  THOSE  IMAGES  WITHOUT  THE  USE  OF  OUR  EYES.

IT  ALWAYS  SEEMED  SO  BIZARRE  TO  ME,  HOW  WE  WE  COULD  SEE  THESE  IMAGES  IN  OUR  MIND.

APPARENTLY,  WE  DON’T  NEED  OUR  EYE’S  TO  SEE,  OR  AT  LEAST  NOT  ALL  OF  THE  TIME.

SO  I  HAD  A  LOT  QUESTIONS,  THAT  I  PRESUMED  SCIENCE  WOULD  EXPLAIN  TO  ME’

ONCE  I  TOOK  THE  TROUBLE  TO  LOOK.

*

WELL  I  DISCOVERED  PRETTY  QUICKLY  THAT  SCIENCE  COULDN’T  ANSWER

A  LOT  OF  THESE  QUESTIONS  EITHER.

AND  MAYBE  THAT’S  PART  OF  THE  REASON  I  LOOKED  ELSEWHERE  FOR  THE  TRUTH.

*

SO  I  READ  BOOKS  ABOUT  PSYCHOLOGY,

 PHILOSOPHY,  RELIGION,  SCIENCE  AND  EVOLUTION.

AND  I  READ  A  LOT  OF  CRAP  AND  BULL  SHIT  OVER  THE  YEARS  TOO.

I  WAS  PRETTY  GULLIBLE,  WHEN  I  WANTED  TO  BELIEVE  SOMETHING.

 SO  I  DID  INDULGED  IN  PLENTY  OF  WISHFUL  BELIEVING.

*

BUT   THERE  WAS  A  TIME  IN   MY  FORTIES  WHERE  I  REALLY  TRIED

TO  QUESTION  MY  OWN  BELIEFS  AND  WHY  I  BELIEVED  THEM.

ESPECIALLY  MY  BELIEFS  ABOUT  EXACTLY  WHAT  A  HUMAN  BEING  IS.

AND  WHERE  WE  CAME  FROM.

AND  I  ALSO  QUESTIONED  MY  OWN  PERSONAL  BELIEFS  ABOUT  A  HIGH  POWER  AND  GOD

*

I  WASN’T  REALLY  QUESTIONING  WHAT  IT  IS  TO BE  A  MAN

OR  A  GOOD  PERSON  OR  EVEN  A  SUCCESSFUL  ONE.

I  WAS  QUESTIONING  WHAT  IT  IS  TO  BE  THIS  ORGANISM  WE  CALL  A  HUMAN  BEING

HOW  DID  WE  COME  TO  OCCUPY  THIS  PLANET ?

WHERE  DID  WE  COME  FROM  AND  WHERE  ARE  WE  GOING ?

AM  I  A  PRODUCT  OF  THE  BIG  BANG ?

AND  IF  I  AM,  WHAT  DOES  THAT  EVEN  MEAN.

I  MEAN…..  WHAT  THE  FUCK  ARE  WE …..  REALLY.

*

SO  I  BEGAN  TO  WONDER,  ARE  WE  PART  OF  THIS  UNIVERSE,

 INTRICATELY  CONNECTED  TO  IT  LIKE  THE  ROOTS  OF  A  TREE  INTO  DIRT  OF   THE  EARTH.

OR  ARE  WE  COMPLETELY  DISCONNECTED  FROM  IT  ENTIRELY ?

OR  DOES  THE  UNIVERSE  HAVE  AN  IMPACT  ON  OUR  DAILY  LIVES,

LIKE  THE  DETERMINISTIC  VIEW  THAT  SOME  PEOPLE  BELIEVE.

*

CHAPTER

*

THE  PRAYING  ATHEIST

*

WHEN  I  WAS  GROWING  UP  I  HAD  TO  GO  TO  CHURCH

 AND  I  WAS  GIVEN  SOME  CHANGE  TO  PUT  IN  THE  POOR  BOX.

OF  COURSE  ME  AND  FRIENDS  WOULD  CUT  MOST  OF  THE  TIME

AND  SPEND  THE  MONEY  ON  ICE CREAM,  BUT  THAT’S  ANOTHER  STORY.

AND  I  ALSO  HAD  TO  RECEIVE  COMMUNION  AND  CONFIRMATION.

SO  I  WAS  FAIRLY  INDOCTRINATED  INTO  THE  WORLD  OF  RELIGION.

HOWEVER,

 MY  FATHER  WAS  AN  ATHEIST  AND  I  GUESS  I  FOLLOWED  HIS  LEAD.

UNTIL  IN  MY  LATE  TWENTIES  I  HAD  A  LITTLE  TURN  OF  EVENTS,

 AND  DECIDED  TO  SWITCH  TEAMS…….

NO,  NOT  THAT  TEAM.

ANYWAY,  I  DID  MAKE  A  DECISION  AND  AN  HONEST  EFFORT  TO

CREATE  A  SPIRITUAL  PRACTICE  OF  PRAYER  AND  MEDITATION,

AS  WELL  AS  A  BELIEF  IN  A  POWER  GREATER  THAN  MYSELF,

WHICH  I  EVENTUALLY  CALLED  GOD  AND  JESUS  AT  TIMES.

*

I  STUCK  TO  IT  FOR  A  NUMBER  OF  YEARS.

AND  OVER  TIME  I  DID  DEVELOP  A  FAITH  IN  SOME  KIND  OF  HIGHER  POWER.

IT  WAS  TAUGHT  THAT  WHEN  I  HAD  A  PROBLEM,  I  SHOULD  ASK

FOR  GUIDANCE  AND  THEN  DO  EVERYTHING  I  COULD  POSSIBLY  DO.

AND  ONLY  THEN  WAS  I  SUPPOSED  TO  TURN  THE  RESULTS

OVER  TO  MY  HIGHER  POWER.

I  WAS  ALSO  TAUGHT  THAT  A  SPIRITUAL  PRACTICE  HAD  TO  GROW  OR  IT  WOULD  DIE.

SO  I  READ  AND  I  MEDITATED  REGULARLY  AND  I  CONTINUED  TO  QUESTION  RELIGIOUS  PEOPLE  BELIEFS,

AS  WELL  AS  MY  OWN,  AND  I  ATTEMPTED  TO  GROW  IN  A  SPIRITUAL  DIRECTION.

*

BUT  THEN  THERE  CAME  A  TIME  IN  MY  SO  CALLED  SPIRITUAL  PRACTICE  WHEN  I  REALIZED

MY  BELIEFS  WERE  OFTEN  ABOUT  ME  PANDERING  TO  MY  OWN  PERSONAL  FEARS  AND  DESIRES.

SO  ONE  DAY  AFTER  FLIPPING  THROUGH  ANOTHER  ONE  OF  MY  MANY  ZEN  BOOKS,

IT  WAS  SUGGESTED  TO  ME  THAT  I  WOULD  NEED  TO  DROP  MY  BELIEFS

IF  I  WANTED  TO  SEE  THE  TRUTH  ABOUT  LIFE  AND  THE  REALITY  OF  IT.

*

SO  ONE  DAY  I  DECIDED  TO  DROP  ALL  MY  BELIEFS  AND  SEE  IF  MAYBE

THE  TRUTH  WOULD  REVEAL  ITSELF.

LOOKING  BACK  I’M  NOT  REALLY  SURE  WHAT  TRUTHS  I  EXPECTED  TO  FIND.

BUT  MY  INTENTION  HAD  CHANGED,

 BECAUSE  PRIOR  TO  THAT

I  WOULD  CHOOSE  BELIEFS  THAT  WOULD  MAKE  ME  FEEL  GOOD

  OR  FEEL  HEALTHIER  OR  MORE  SECURE.

OR  I  WOULD  CHOOSE  BELIEFS  THAT  WOULD  HELP

 GUIDE  MY  LIFE  IN  A  MORE  POSITIVE  DIRECTION.

BUT  THE  TRUTH  DIDN’T  NECESSARILY  COME  INTO  PLAY.

THE  TRUTH  WAS  IRRELEVANT.

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CHAPTER

“GOD  WITHDRAWL”

*

SO  I  DID  REALIZE  FROM  THE  BEGINNING  THAT  SEEKING  THE  TRUTH

AND  THE  FACTS  ABOUT  LIFE  MAY  NOT  SERVE  ME  ALL  THAT  WELL.

ESPECIALLY  WHEN  IT  CAME  TO  MY  EMOTIONAL  HEALTH.

AND  I   ALSO  BECAME  AWARE  OF  THE  MANY  PSYCHOLOGICAL  BENEFITS

RELIGION  AND  FAITH  SEEMED  TO  GIVE  ME.

*

BUT  I  DECIDED  IT  WAS  MY  SPIRITUAL  PRACTICE  THAT  WAS  DIRECTING  ME  TOWARD  TRUTH

RATHER  THAN  BELIEFS.

SO  IN  A  WAY,  IT  WAS  MY  SPIRITUAL  PRACTICE  THAT  ACTUALLY  TURNED  ME  BACK  INTO  AN  ATHEIST.

SO  I  DECIDED  TO  PUT  MY  OWN  BELIEFS  ASIDE,

OR  AT  LEAST  SECONDARY,  AND  SEE  WHAT  HAPPENED.

  I  TRIED  TO  FOCUS  ON  WHAT  WAS  REAL  VS  WHAT  WERE  MY  OWN  PERSONAL  BELIEFS.

 AND  INSTEAD  OF  SEEKING  BELIEFS  THAT  JUST  MADE  ME  FEEL  GOOD,

I  WOULD  TRY  TO  LOOK  AT  THE  OBVIOUS  FACTS  OF  LIFE,

 AS  WELL  AS  THE  FACTS  SCIENCE  HAS  SHOWN  US  TO  BE  TRUE.

*

SO  ONE  OF  THE  FIRST  THINGS  I  REALIZED,  WAS  THAT  MOST  OF  WHAT  I  THOUGHT

I  KNEW  WAS  EITHER  AN  OPINION  OR  A  BELIEF.

*

AND  THE  NEXT  THING  I  DISCOVERED,  WAS  THAT  IT  WASN’T  GOING  TO  BE  AS  EASY  AS  I  THOUGHT,

TO  ABANDON  ALL  OF  MY  SPIRITUAL  BELIEFS.

 BUT  I  TRIED,  AFTER  ALL,  IT  WAS  PART  OF  SPIRITUAL  PRACTICE.

*

SO  AS  A  RESULT  OF  MY  DECISION  TO  ABANDON  MY  FAITH  IN  A  HIGHER  POWER,

MY  LIFE  DID  BECOME  MORE  STRESSFUL.

ESPECIALLY  WHEN  THINGS  WEREN’T  GOING  GOOD  IN  MY  LIFE.

I  ALSO  BECAME  MORE  FEARFUL  IN  A  WORLD  WHERE  THERE  WAS  NO  GOD.

A  WORLD  WITH  NO  HIGHER  POWER  WHO  LOOKED  AFTER  THE  WELFARE  OF  ME  AND  MY  FAMILY.

AND  A  GOD  THAT  WAS  NO  LONGER  THERE  ON  THE  THE  SIDE  OF  THE  GOOD

AND  THE  JUST.

AND  FOR  A  TIME  THE  WORLD  SEEMED  LIKE  A  VERY  DOG  EAT  DOG  KIND  OF  PLACE.

*

I  ALSO  ALSO  BEGAN  TO  WONDER  ABOUT  THE   NATURE  OF  OUR  PLANET  AND  THE  UNIVERSE.

SUDDENLY  THE  UNIVERSE  BECAME  A  VAST,  POWERFULLY  VIOLENT,

UNPREDICTABLE  AND  UNSTABLE  FORCE.

WHICH  NO  ONE  AND  NO  THING  HAD  CONTROL  OVER.

PRIOR  TO  THAT,  I  TOOK  A  MUCH  MORE  EGOTISTICAL  VIEW

OF  THE  UNIVERSE.

IT  WAS  A  UNIVERSE  CREATED  FOR  MAN,  BY  GOD.

SUDDENLY  I  BECAME  VERY  SMALL  AND  INSIGNIFICANT.

*

AND  THEN  AFTER  HAVING  A  FEW  FAMILY  DEATHS

 AS  WELL  AS  THE  DEATHS  OF  SOME  OF  MY  CHILDHOOD  FRIENDS,

  I  STARTED  TO  BECOME  MORE  AND  MORE  AWARE  OF  THE  FRAGILITY

 OF  MY  OWN  BODY  AND  THE  FACT

OF  MY  OWN  MORTALITY.

*

I  BEGAN  TO  SEE  MORE  CLEARLY  HOW  THE  EARTH  AND  THE  UNIVERSE  ARE  IN  CONSTANT  CHANGE.

 AND  JUST  LIKE  THE  TREE  ON  MY  FRONT  LAWN,  BOTH  THE  EARTH  AND  THE  SUN  AND  EVEN  ME,

WERE  ALL   TEMPORARY  SITUATIONS.

*

 THEN  I  BEGAN  TO  WONDER  HOW  LIMITED  THE  HUMAN  MIND  MAY  VERY  WELL  BE.

MAYBE  ALL  OUR  IDEAS  AND  OPINIONS  ABOUT  LIFE  AND  THE  WORLD  I  LIVE  IN

ARE  TOTALLY  RIDICULOUS.

*

FOR  ALL  I  KNOW,  THE  VIEW  OF  REALITY  CREATED  BY  THE  HUMAN  MIND  MAY  BE

VERY  LIMITED  AND  EVEN  RIDICULOUSLY  STUPID  AND  NAIVE.

HOW  WOULD  WE  KNOW  IT  WASN’T.

WE  HAVE  HAVE  NOTHING  TO  COMPARE  TO.

WE  MADE  THE  IQ  TEST,  THEN  WE  DECIDED  WHO  THE  GENIUS’S  WERE.

*

ALL  OF  A  SUDDEN  THE  POSSIBILITY  OF  ALIEN  RACES  BECAME  A  REALITY.

I  MEAN  IF  THE  UNIVERSE  SPIT  US  OUT  WHY  NOT  OTHERS  LIKE  US.

FOR  ALL  I  KNEW,  THERE  COULD  BE  ALIEN  RACE’S  FAR  MORE  INTELLIGENT  THAN  WE  ARE.

SCATTERED  THROUGHOUT  THE  UNIVERSE.

AND  MAYBE  THEY  JUST  STAY  AWAY  FROM  US  BECAUSE  THEY  THINK  WE’RE  FUCKING  IDIOTS.

OR  THEY  COULD  JUST  BE  TOO  FAR  AWAY  OR  MAYBE  IN  A  WHOLE  DIFFERENT  UNIVERSE.

*

SO  IN  A  WAY  ATHEISM  DID  OPEN  MY  EYES  TO  MANY  OTHER  POSSIBILITIES.

BUT  I  HAVE  TO  ADMIT  THAT  FOR  A  TIME  I  DID  BECOME  A  LITTLE  DISTURBED  BY  THE  IDEA  OF

AN  EXISTENCE  THAT  WASN’T  JUST  ABOUT  ME  AND  MY  FELLOW  HUMANS.

AND  I  GUESS  I  GOT  A  CLOSER  LOOK  AT  MY  BIG  EGO.

*

ANYWAY,  I  DISCOVERED  THAT  BEING  AN  ATHEIST  WASN’T  AS  EASY  AS  I  THOUGHT.

AT LEAST  NOT  FOR  ME.

 AND  I  ENDED  UP  HAVING  SLIPS  FROM  TIME  TO  TIME.

SO  LIKE  MOST  OF  MY  OTHER  ENDEAVORS  I  FAILED  AT  BEING  AN  ATHEIST  TOO.

BUT,  NOT  ENTIRELY.

*

SO  I  DID  CONTINUE  TO  PRAY  SOMETIMES  AND  EVEN  TALK  TO  A  GOD,

 THAT  I  CLAIMED  I  DIDN’T  EVEN  BELIEVE  IN.

AND  I’LL  ADMIT  I  DIDN’T  FEEL  VERY  GOOD  ABOUT.

BUT  I  ACCEPTED  THE  FACT  THAT  THIS  WAS  THE  BEST  I  COULD  DO  AT  THE  MOMENT.

*

AND  SO  I  ACCEPTED  THE  IDEA  OF  BEING  A  PRAYING  ATHEIST.

AND  A  PERSON  WHO  TALKS  TO,  AND  EVEN  BELIEVES  IN  A  HIGHER  POWER  FROM

TIME  TO  TIME.

 BUT  I  ACKNOWLEDGED  MY  HYPOCRISY.

*

SO  ON  THE  ONE  HAND,  THE  IDEA   THAT  THERE  IS  A  SUPREME  ENTITY,

 THAT  IS  SEPARATE  AND  ABOVE  THE  LAWS  OF  NATURE,

IS  JUST  A  TOTALLY  FUCKING  RIDICULOUS  IDEA  TO  ME.

AND  MAYBE  EVEN  A  DANGEROUS  ONE.

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AND  THEN  ON  THE  OTHER  HAND,  THERE  SEEMS  TO  BE  AN  INSTINCTUAL  FEELING

DEEP  INSIDE  ME,  THAT  TELLS  ME  THERE  IS  SOMETHING  UNEXPLAINABLE  AND  UNIMAGINABLE,

THAT  IS  THE  SOURCE  OF  LOVE  AND  ALL  THINGS  GOOD,  SOMETHING  BEYOND  WORDS,

SOMETHING  SPIRITUAL.

BUT  I  STILL  THINK  IT’S  A  TOTALLY  FUCKING  RIDICULOUS  IDEA,

BASED  IN  FANTASY  AND  WISHFUL  THINKING.

*

QUICK  STORY,

 THERE’S  THIS  WOMAN  I  KNOW  THAT  USE’S  ONE  OF  THOSE

WALKERS  WITH  THE  WHEELS  IN  THE  FRONT.

AN  I  OFTEN  SE  HER  RACING  AROUND  THE  DEPARTMENT  STORES.

BUT  THE  FUNNY  THING  IS,  SHE  CAN  WALK  FASTER  THAN  ME  AND  SHE  SEEMS  JUST  AS  STRONG

AND  AGILE .  SO  I  ONE  DAY  I  SAW  HER  AND  I  JUST  WANTED  TO  GRAB  THAT  FUCKING  WALKER

AWAY  FROM  HER  AND  THROW  IT  IN  THE  FUCKING  STREET.

AND  TELL  HER,  WHO  THE  FUCK  ARE  YOU  KIDDING,

YOU  DON’T  NEED  THAT  FUCKING  THING.

I  DIDN’T  OF  COURSE.

BUT  IT  DID  GET  ME  THINKING,  IS  THIS  BELIEF  IN  A  HIGHER  POWER  JUST

A  MENTAL  CRUTCH,  THAT  I’M  JUST  TOO  AFRAID  TO  LET  GO  OF.

*

CHAPTER

*

“THE  PROBLEM  WITH  GOD”

*

HERE’S  THE  MAIN  REASON  I  THINK  IT’S  DANGEROUS

 TO  PUT  TOO  MUCH  FAITH  IN  A  GOD.

IF  ANY  AT  ALL.

WELL  FOR  ONE  THING  IT  SEEMS  TO  PROMOTE  MAGICAL  THINKING,

WHICH  IS  BASED  IN  IDEAS  AND  THEORIES  THAT  AREN’T  BACKED  BY  ANY  SCIENTIFIC

FACTS,  SO  YOU  CAN  BASICALLY  SAY  AND  BELIEVE  ANYTHING  YOU  WANT  TO.

*

ALSO  IF  YOU  BELIEVE  IN  A  GOD,  THEN  YOU  MAY  BEGIN  TO  BELIEVE  THAT

 THAT  GOD  HAS  A  WILL  WHICH  YOU  SHOULD  TRY  TO  EMULATE.

OR  PERHAPS  YOU  BELIEVE  THIS  GOD  WAS  INSTRUMENTAL  IN  WRITING

A  PARTICULAR  BOOK.

SO  NOW  YOU  BECOME  A  SLAVE  TO  A  SET  OF  IDEAS  JUST  BECAUSE  YOU

BELIEVE  GOD  SAID  IT.

*

SO  THEN  YOU  MAY  BEGIN  TO  BELIEVE  THAT  YOU  KNOW  WHAT  THE  WILL  OF  THE

GOD  YOU  BELIEVE  IN,  ACTUALLY  IS.

  AND  HERE’S  WHERE  THE  REAL  DANGER  COULD  BEGIN.

*

BECAUSE  NOW  YOU  COULD  ENTER  INTO  ALL  SORTS  OF  MAGICAL,  DELUDED,

 CONFUSED  AND  MISGUIDED  THINKING.

BECAUSE  INSTEAD  OF  THINKING  FOR  YOURSELF,  WHICH  MIGHT  ALREADY  BE  FUCKED  UP,

 NOW  YOUR  TRYING  TO

FIGURE  OUT  WHAT  GOD  WANTS  YOU  TO  DO.

 AND  THEN  YOU  MAY  EVEN  BEGIN  TO  THINK  THAT  THIS  GOD  OF  YOURS

IS  GIVING  YOU  SIGNS.

AND  AT  THIS  POINT  YOU  MAY  BEING  ASKING  GOD  FOR  A  SIGN  TO  GUIDE  YOU.

INSTEAD  OF  MAKING  A  CONSCIOUS  AND  RATIONAL  DECISION  BASED  ON  FACTS.

*

AND  THEN  PERHAPS  YOU  BELIEVE  THAT  THIS  GOD  YOU  BELIEVE  IN  IS  NOW  GIVING

YOU  THE  POWER  TO  DO  HIS  WILL.

BECAUSE  AFTER  ALL,  YOU  MAY  BELIEVE  THAT  GOD  WOULDN’T  LET  IT  HAPPEN

 IF  IT  WASN’T  MEANT  TO  BE.

BUT  FOR  ALL  YOU  KNOW,  IT’S  SECRETLY  YOUR  OWN  PERSONAL  DESIRES  OR  FEARS

 THAT  ARE  GUIDING  YOU  ANYWAY.

 OR  MAYBE  YOUR  TRUELY  TRYING  TO  DO  WHAT  YOU  THINK  GOD  WOULD  DO,

OR  WHAT  YOU  THINK  GOD  SHOULD  DO.

EITHER  WAY,  THIS  SEEMS  TO  BE  A  DANGEROUS  DECISION  MAKING  PROCESS

FOR  A  MERE  MORTAL.

*

THEN  SUPPOSE  YOUR  A  PERSON  IN  A  POSITION  OF  POWER.

  WELL,  YOUR  AWARE  OF  THE  SERIOUS  DAMAGE  THAT  PERSON  COULD  CAUSE.

  AND  THEN  THOSE  ACTIONS  ARE  USUALLY  JUSTIFIED

BECAUSE  THE  PERSONS  BELIEVE  THEY  WERE  DOING

GODS  WILL  ANYWAY.

*

THE  OTHER  PROBLEM  WITH  GOD  AND  RELIGION  IS  THAT  IT  ALWAYS

PUTS  YOU  AND  YOUR  GROUP  ON  A  SELF  APPOINTED  MORAL  HIGH  GROUND.

SO  NOW  YOU  BELIEVE  YOU  KNOW  WHATS  BEST  FOR  EVERYONE

ON  THE  ENTIRE  PLANET.

I  KNOW  MANY  OF  US  THINK  WE  KNOW  WHATS  BEST  FOR  EVERYONE  ANYWAY,

BUT  WHEN  YOU  HAVE  MILLIONS  OF  PEOPLE,  ALL  PART  OF  THE  SAME  RELIGIOUS  IDEOLOGY

  AND  THEY  ALL  LIVE  IN  THE  SAME  PLACE,

IT  BECOMES  A  HELL  OF  A  LOT  MORE  DANGEROUS.

BECAUSE  THEY  PROBABLY  HAVE A  GOVERNMENT  AND  A  MILITARY.

ON  A  SECOND  THOUGHT,  I’M  NOT  SURE  THAT  A  GROUP  WITH  A  COMMON

RELIGIOUS  GOAL  WIELDING  ITS  POWER ,  IS  ANY  WORSE  THAN  A  NON-RLIGIOUS

GROUP  WIELDING  IT’S  POWER.  BOTH  COULD  BE  EQUALY  DANGEROUS.

EXCEPT  ONE  BIG  DIFFERENCE,  THE  RELIGIOUS  GROUP  IS  PART  OF  A  GROUP

THAT  PRACTICES  WHAT  I  WOULD  CALL,  MAGICAL  THINKING.

THEY  HAVE   A  BELIEF  SYSTEM  THAT  THEY  PUT  ABOVE  THE  LAWS  OF  SCIENCE

AND  ABOVE  LOGICAL  REASONING.

IN  OTHER  WORDS,

THEY’RE  FUCKING  CRAZY.

*

CHAPTER  SIX

*

“TO  MUCH  JESUS”

*

I  THINK  MANY  PEOPLE  NEED  TO  HAVE  SOMEONE  THE  WORSHIP

AND  SOMEONE  TO  PISS ON.

IF  YOU  WATCH  HUMAN  BEHAVIOR,  YOU’LL  SEE  WE’RE  OFTEN  PRAISING  SOMEONE

OR  PUTTING  SOMONE  DOWN.  MAYBE  NOT  ALWAYS  VERBALLY  BUT  PROBABLY

MENTALLY.

THAT’S  WHY  POLITICS  AND  POLITICIANS  ARE  SO  GREAT,  BECAUSE

IT  GIVES  OUR  EGOES  AN  OPPORTUNITY  TO GET  SOME  EXERCISE.

SO  NOW  IN  OUR  INFINITE  WISDOW  WE  CAN  DECIDE  WHO’S  RIGHT  AND  WHO’S  WRONG.

WHO’S  GOOD  AND  WHO’S  BAD  AND  WHO’S  SMART  AND  WHO’S  STUPID.

AND  IT  GIVES  US  SOCIALLY  ACCEPTED  FORUM  TO  TELL  EVERYONE

WHY  THIS  GUY’S  A  FUCKING  IDIOT  OR   THIS  ONE’S  GREAT.

BUT  THE  POINT  I’M  TRYING  TO  MAKE  HERE  IS  THAT  MAYBE  THE  MESSENGER

ISN’T  AS  IMPORTANT  ALWAYS  AS  WE  THINK.

*

SO  SOMETIMES  I  LIKE  TO  VIEW  JESUS  LIKE  A  CAN  OPENER,

NOW  LETS  SAY  YOU  NEED  A  CAN OPENER  SO  YOU  CAN  OPEN

A  CAN  OF  SOUP  OR  A  CAN  OR  BEER  OR  WHAT  EVER.

NOW  ONCE  YOU  OPEN  THE  CAN  YOU  PUT  THE  CAN  OPENER  ASIDE,

BECAUSE  IT’S  WHAT  IN  THE  CAN  THAT’S  IMPORTANT’

NOT  THE  FUCKING  CAN  OPENER.

IT’S  THE  SOUP  OR  THE  BEER  YOUR  AFTER,  THE  CAN  OPEN  IS  JUST  THE  TOOL.

BUT  PEOPLE  ALWAYS  WANT  TO  WORSHIP  THE  FUCKING  THE  CAN  OPENER.

*

SO  IN  MY  CULTURE,  EVEN  THOUGH  MY  FATHER  MAY  HAVE  BEEN  ATHEIST,

I  WAS  BROUGHT  UP  TO  BELIEVE  THAT  JESUS  WAS  GOD.

AND  THATS  THE  ONLY  REASON  I’M  USING  JESUS  AS AN  EXAMPLE.

*

SO  LETS  TAKE  THE  JESUS  MESSAGE  FOR  INSTANCE,  THINGS  LIKE

LOVE,  FORGIVENESS,  ACCEPTANCE,  COMPASSION.

NOW  FOR  ME,  I  WOULD  THINK  MAYBE  IT’S  THE  MESSAGE  THAT’S  IMPORTANT

NOT  THE  DELIVERYMAN.

BUT  AGAIN,  PEOPLE  ALWAYS  SEEM  TO  NEED  SOMEONE  OR  SOMETHING  TO  WORSHIP.

*

CHAPTER  SEVEN

*

“BACK  TO  EARTH”

*

SO  THOSE  ARE  MY  OWN  PERSONAL  BELIEFS  ABOUT  THE  DANGERS  OF  RELIGION.

AND  I  KNOW  I  MAY  BE  OFF  BASE.

 AND  THAT  PERHAPS  IT’S  REALLY  ONLY  THE  RADICAL

WHO  WILL  MISS  USE  RELIGIOUS  BELIEFS.

BUT  I  DON’T  WANT  THIS  BOOK  TO  BE  A  BATTLE  BETWEEN  WHETHER  THERE

IS  A  GOD  OR  THERE  ISN’T.

I  WANT  THIS  BOOK  TO  BE  FOR  THE  PERSON  WHO  HAS  DECIDED  THAT  MAYBE  AT  THIS

POINT  IN  THE  EVOLUTION  OF  OUR  PLANET,  RELIGION  AND  GOD

MAY  BE  DOING  MORE  HARM  THAN  GOOD.

*

SO  I  WANT  TO  FOCUS  ON  WHAT  WE  KNOW  TO  BE  TRUE,

RATHER  THAT  WHAT  WE  BELIEVE  OR  WISH  TO  BE  TRUE.

AND  TO  FIND  OUT  IF  THE  TRUTH  ABOUT  NATURE  AND  THE  UNIVERSE

 CAN  OFFER  US  SOMETHING  MEANINGFUL  AND  USEFUL.

AND  MAYBE  TO  TRY  TO  ACKNOWLEDGE   THE  FACTS  ABOUT  THE  WORLD  WE  LIVE  IN.

*

SO  ONE  OF  THE  MAIN  REASONS  I  LOVE  SCIENCE  IS  THAT  IT  FOCUS’S,

MOST  OF  THE  TIME,  ON  THE  FACTS  AND  THE  TRUTH.

AND  THE  BEAUTIFUL  THING  ABOUT  THE  TRUTH  OR  A  FACT,  IS  THAT  IT  SPEAKS  FOR  ITSELF.

AND  THAT  IT  SOME  WAYS  IT  DOESN’T   MATTER  WHAT  ME  OR  ANYONE

 PERSONALLY  BELIEVES  IN .

SO  MAYBE  YOU  BELIEVE  THAT  THE  CLOUDS  ARE  FORMED  BY  THE  FARTS  OF  ANGELS.

WELL  THAT’S  ALL  WELL  AND  GOOD.

BUT  IT  DOESN’T  CHANGE  THE  FACT  THAT  A  CLOUD  IS  WATER  VAPOR  CONDENSING  ONTO

TINY  PEICES  OF  DUST.

*

SO  MY  POINT  IS,

IT  DOESN’T  REALLY  MATTER  WHAT  ANYONE.

A  FACT  IS  A  FACT,  WHETHER  GHANDI  SAID  IT  OR  HITLER,  OR  THE  GUY  AT  THE  CORNER  DELI.

 IF  IT’S  TRUE  IT’S  TRUE,  AND  IF  IT’S  NOT  IT’S  NOT.

AND  THAT’S  A  FACT.

*

SOME  PEOPLE  PUT  SO  MUCH  FAITH  IN  THEIR  BELIEFS  THAT  THEY  ARE

WILLING  TO  GIVE  UP  THEIR  OWN  LIVES,  OR  TAKE  TAKE  THE  LIVES  OF  OTHERS.

BUT  THAT  DOESN’T  MAKE  THEIR  BELIEFS  TRUE.

IT  ONLY  MAKES  THEIR  FAITH  TRUE.

AND  THAT’S  A  FACT  TOO.

BUT  ONE  HAS  NOTHING  TO  DO  WITH  THE  OTHER.

SO  LETS  TRY  TO  FOCUS  ON  THE  FACTS  AND  THE  TRUTH.

*

CHAPTER  EIGHT

*

“MOVING  FORWARD”

*

SO  TO  MOVE  ON  NOW,

AT  THIS  POINT  I  REALIZED  THAT  BEING  AN  ATHEIST  ISN’T  REALLY  A  BELIEF  ANYWAY.

GOD  AND  RELIGION  ARE  BELIEFS.

ALL  AN  ATHEIST  IS,  IS  SOMEONE  WHO  DOESN’T  BELIEVE  IN  SOMETHING.

WHICH  IN  SOME  WAYS  IS  A  FAIRLY  EASY  THING  TO  DO.

AND  I  AM  ONE  OF  THOSE  PEOPLE  WHO  SPENDS  A  LITTLE  TOO  MUCH  TIME

CLAIMING  WHAT  HE  DOESN’T  BELIEVE  IN  AND  WHAT  I  THINK  IS  BULL  SHIT.

*

SO  NOW  IF  I  CLAIM  I DON’T  BELIEVE  HUMAN  BEINGS  ARE  A  CREATION

OF  SOME  KIND  OF  GOD,

THEN  I  HAD  TO  FIGURE  OUT

 WHAT  IT  WAS  THAT  I  DID  BELIEVE  IN.

WHICH  WAS  ACTUALLY  MUCH  MORE  DIFFICULT.

*

I  ALSO  DISCOVERED  THAT  FAITH  WAS  GOING  TO  HAVE  TO  ENTER  INTO  THE  PICTURE  AGAIN.

I  WAS  GOING  TO  HAVE  TO  PUT  MY  FAITH  IN  THE  FACTS.

I  KNOW  IT  WOULD  SEEM  THAT  YOU  DON’T  NEED  FAITH,  WHEN  IT  COMES  TO  FACTS,

BUT  THAT’S  NOT  ENTIRELY  TRUE.

JUST  WATCH  A  SCARY  MOVIE,  EVERYTHING  YOUR  LOOKING  AT  ON

THAT  SCRENE  IS  TOTAL  BULL  SHIT,  BUT  IT  CAN  STILL

SCARE  THE  SHIT  OUT  OF  YOU.

WE  KNOW  IT’S  TRUE  THAT  WE’RE  WATCHING  IMAGES  OF  LIGHT  ON  A  SCRENE.

BUT  FOR  WHAT  EVER  REASON,  THAT  FACT  DOESN’T  SEEM  TO  MATTER  TO  US.

*

THERE  WAS  A  TIME  IN  OUR  HISTORY  WHEN  PEOPLE  THE  EARTH  WAS  FLAT

AND  IF  YOU  WALKED  TO  THE  EDGE  YOU  COULD  FALL  OFF.

WELL  IT  WASN’T  SURPRISING  THAT  WHEN  WE  FIRST  DISCOVERED

THE  THE  EARTH  WAS  ROUND,  THE  COMMON  AVERAGE  PERSON

DIDN’T  BELIEVE  IT.

SOME  PEOPLE  DIDN’T  EVEN  BELIEVE  WE  LANDED  ON  THE  MOON’

THAT  THOUGHT  IT  WAS  STAGED  IN  HOLLYWOOD  SOMEWHERE.

*

BUT  THE  POINT  I’M  REALLY  TRY  TO  MAKE  HERE  IS  THAT  FACTS

CAN  OFTEN  SEEM  VERY  STRANGE  AND  BIZARRE.

AND  TO  SOME  DEGREE  YOU  HAVE  TO  PUT  YOUR  FAITH  IN  THEM.

OTHERWISE  NO  ONE  WOULD  EVER  HAD  SAILED  AROUND  THE  WORLD’

IN  FEAR  OF  FALLING  OFF.

*

SO  FOR  ME,  I  NEEDED  TO  PUT  MY  FAITH  IN  THE  FACTS  ABOUT  NATURE

AND  ALSO  THE  FACTS  ABOUT  NATURE  THAT  SCIENCE  HAS  PROVEN  TO  BE  TRUE.

THINGS  LIKE,  THE  EARTH  IS  ROUND

AS  WELL  AS  NEW  DISCOVERIES,  LIKE  FINDING  SOME  KIND  OF  WATER  ON  MARS.

*

SO  I  WANT  THIS  TO  BE  A  BOOK  FOR  THE  LAYPERSON

 OR  THE  AVERAGE  MAN  OR  WOMAN.

SOMEONE  WHO  FOR  ONE  REASON  OR  ANOTHER,

 HAS  GIVEN  UP  ON,  OR  IS  IN  THE  PROCESS  OF  GIVING  UP  ON

 THE  IDEA  THAT  WE  WERE  PLACED  HERE

 BY  A  SUPERNATURAL  BEING.

AND  IS  NOW  LOOKING  TO  SCIENCE  NATURE  AND  THE  UNIVERSE

 FOR  THE  ANSWERS.

 THE  ANSWERS  TO  WHAT  WE  ARE  AND  WHERE  WE  CAME  FROM.

*

SO  AS  I  BEGAN  TO  GIVE  UP  ON  THE  IDEA

 THAT  I  WAS  CREATED  BY  A  GOD,

  I  REALIZED  THAT  I  MUST  HAVE  BEEN  CREATED  BY  NATURE.

IF  I  WASN’T  PLACED  HERE

BY  SOME  KIND  OF  SPIRITUAL  BEING,  THEN  I  MUST  BE  A  CREATION

OF  THE  EARTH  AND  THE  UNIVERSE  THAT  CREATED  IT.

AND  I  GUESS  THAT’S  WHAT  SCIENCE  HAS  BEEN  TRYING  TO  SHOW  US  ALL  ALONG.

*

UNFORTUNATELY  RELIGION  AND  POLITICS  AS  WELL  AS  OUR  FEARS  AND  BELIEFS

  MAY  HAVE  HAD  A  HAND  IN  SQUASHING  THESE  FACTS.

AND  MAYBE  I  WASN’T  TO  KEEN  ON  THE  IDEA  THAT  I  WAS  CREATED  BY  THIS

MYSTERIOUS  UNIVERSE.

 AND  I  MIGHT  ACTUALLY  BE  A  PRODUCT  OF  SOME  KIND

OF  PRIMORDIAL  EARTH  SNOT.

BUT  I  TRIED  TO  PUT  MY  BELIEFS  AND  DESIRES  ASIDE  AND  LOOK

AT  WHAT  NATURE  WAS  SHOWING  ME.

*

BUT  AS  I  STARTED  TO  SEE,  NATURE  MAY  BE  MORE  SUPPORTIVE  THAN  I  REALIZED.

 AND  MY  CONNECTION  TO  NATURE  BECAME  MORE  AND  MORE  OBVIOUS.

THERE  ARE  PLENTY  OF  OBVIOUS  FACTS  POINTING  TO  OUR  CONNECTION

TO  THE  EARTH  AND  ALL  THE  CREATURES  ON  IT,  BOTH  PRESENT  AND  PAST.

ALL  YOU  HAVE  TO  DO  IS  LOOK  AT  THE  BASIC  SKELETAL  SYSTEM

OF  ANYTHING  THAT  WALKED  CRAWLED  OR  FLEW  ON  THE  EARTH,  ALL  THE  WAY  BACK

TO  THE  DINOSAURS.  AND  THERE  IS  ABSOLUTELY  NO  WAY  YOU  CAN  DENY  THE  CONNECTION.

IT  DOESN’T  TAKE  A  GENIUS  TO  SEE  THE  BASIC  COMMON  CHARACTERISTICS,

THE  VERTEBRAE,  SKULL  AND  LIMBS  TO  NAME  A  FEW.

*

SO  THE  BASIC  QUESTION  I’M  PUTTING  TO  YOU  IS  THIS,

WHAT  IS  A  HUMAN  BEING,  REALLY ?

NOT  WHAT  A  HUMAN  BEING  IS  LIVING  IN  A  PARTICULAR  CULTURE.

BUT  WHAT  A  HUMAN  BEING  IS

WHO  REALLY  ACCEPTS  THAT  WE  ARE  A  CREATION  OF  THE  UNIVERSE

 WE  FIND  OURSELVES  LIVING  IN.

*

AND  AN  EVEN  BETTER  QUESTION  IS,

HOW  DO  WE  VIEW  OURSELVES

AS  BEINGS  WHO  ARE  A  PRODUCT  OF  THIS  UNIVERSE.

RATHER  THAN  BEINGS  WHO  WERE  “PLACED”  IN  THE  UNIVERSE

 BY  SOME  KIND  OF  SPIRITUAL  ENTITY.

*

CHAPTER  EIGHT

*

“A  FACT  IS  A  FACT  IS  A  FACT”

*

SO  AT  THIS  POINT  IN  MY  LIFE  I  CONSCIOUSLY  CHOSE,  NOT  TO  TRUST  MY  BELIEFS

 OR  EVEN  MY  INTUITION  AS  I  ONCE  DID.

AND  I  BELIEVE  THAT  SOMETIMES,  THEY  MAY  JUST  BE  BELIEFS

THAT  WERE  PUSHED  ON  ME  BY  THE  CULTURE  I  WAS  BORN  INTO.

AND  THEY  ARE  SO  INGRAINED  IN  MY  MIND,

 THAT  AT  THIS  POINT  THEY’RE  MORE  LIKE  SOME  KIND  OF  MENTAL  REFLEX.

*

AS  IT  TURNS  OUT,  WHEN  I  STARTED  WRITING  THIS  BOOK

I  REALLY HAD  SOMETHING  TO  SAY.

BUT  AS  I  BEGAN  WRITING,  I  REALIZED  I’M  REALLY  TRYING

FIGURE  OUT  HOW  I  VIEW  MYSELF  AS  PART  OF  THE  NATURAL  WORLD

WHICH  I  BELIEVE  HAS  CREATED  US.

*

SO  WHAT  I’M  TRYING  TO  DO  HERE  IS  LOOK  AT  THE  FACTS  ABOUT  LIFE,

THE  FACTS  THAT  WE  WITTINESS  EVERY  DAY.

 AS  WELL  AS  THE  FACTS  THAT  SCIENCE  HAS  SHOWN  US  TO  BE  TRUE.

THOSE  FACTS  ABOUT  THE  EARTH  WE  LIVE  ON  AND  THE  UNIVERSE

THAT  CREATED  IT.

*

NOW,  THOUGH  I’M  NOT  A  SCIENTIST”,  I  DO  THINK  IT’S  POSSIBLE

FOR  THE  AVERAGE  PERSON  TO  THINK  SCIENTIFICALLY  IF  THEY  CHOOSE  TO.

AND  THAT  MEANS  TO  LOOK  AT  THE  FACTS  FIRST.

AS  YOU  KNOW,  THERE  ARE  SOME  FACTS

THAT  ARE  NOT  ALWAYS  WELL  LIKED  OR  ACCEPTED  BY  MANY  PEOPLE.

AND  THERE  ARE  A  LOT  OF  FACTS  I  DON’T  LIKE  TO  SWALLOW  EITHER.

SOMETIMES  FACTS  CAN  APPEAR  COLD  AND  BRUTAL,

OR  CONFUSING  AND  ILLOGICAL.

EVEN  EINSTEIN  HAD  A  DIFFICULT  TIME  ACCEPTING  CERTAIN

FACTS  ABOUT  NATURE.

*

A  WORD  ABOUT  FACTS.

SOMETIMES  IT’S  A  FACT,  THAT  YOU  DON’T  GET  TO  KNOW  THE  FACTS.

THAT  THE  HARDEST  ONE  I  HAD  TO  LEARN,  KNOWING  THAT  I  DON’T  GET  TO  KNOW  THE  TRUTH

ABOUT  SOME  THINGS  AND  I  PROBABLY  NEVER  WILL.

AND  SOMETIMES  IT’S  A  FACT  THAT  THE  VERY  QUESTION  YOUR  ASKING  IS  WRONG

RIGHT  FROM  THE  BEGINNING.

*

SO  THIS  RAMBLING  OF  MINE,  SHOULD  BE  THOUGHT  OF  AS  MORE  OF  AN  INQUIRY

INTO  WHAT  YOU  BELIEVE,  RATHER  THAN  BELIEVING  WHAT  I  BELIEVE

OR  WHAT  SOME  OTHER  GROUP  BELIEVES.

AND  IT’S  ALSO  IMPORTANT  TO  REALIZE  THAT  IT’S  A  LOT  EASIER

TO  SAY  WHAT  YOU  BELIEVE,  THAN  IT  IS  TO  SAY,  WHY

YOU  BELIEVE  IT.

*

I  THINK  IT’S  ALSO  HELPFUL  TO  LOOK  AT  WHAT  WE  DON’T  BELIEVE  IN,

AS  LONG  AS  WE  USE  IT  TO  TRY  TO  DISCOVER  WHAT  IT  IS  WE  DO  BELIEVE  IN.

SO  AS  AN  ATHEIST,  I  SEE  IT’S  TIME  FOR  ME  TO  FOCUS

  ON  WHAT  IT  IS  THAT  I  ACTUALLY  DO  BELIEVE.

INSTEAD  OF  JUST  TELLING  OTHER  PEOPLE  THAT  THEIR  BELIEFS  ARE  BULLSHIT,

WHICH  IS  A  VERY  EASY  THING  TO DO.

*

SO  I  WILL  TRY  TO  LOOK  AT  THE  EVERY  DAY  FACTS

THAT  ARE  IN  FRONT  OF  ME  ALL  DAY  LONG.

AS  WELL  AS  WHAT  SCIENCE  HAS  SHOWN  ME  TO  BE  TRUE.

AND  I’LL  TRY  TO  AVOID  USING  A  LOT  OF  FANSY  EQUATIONS

 THAT  I  REALLY  DON’T  UNDERSTAND  ANYWAY.

AND  I  WILL  ALSO  TRY  NOT  TO  GO  ALL  NEW  AGE-IAN  ON  YOU  EITHER.

WHICH  I’LL  ADMIT  IS  ONE  OF  MY  WEAKNESS’S

*

I’LL  ALSO  TRY  TO  BE  CAREFUL  TO  NOT  MAKE  ANY  WILD  CLAIMS

THAT  AREN’T  BACKED  UP  WITH  SOME  PROOF.

HOWEVER ….. IN  THE  SPIRIT  OF  BRAIN  STORMING,

IT  MIGHT  BE  HELPFUL  TO  THROW  SOME  IDEAS  OUT  THERE

ABOUT  OUR  BELIEFS  AND  ABOUT  NATURE,

JUST  TO  KEEP  US  THINKING.

*

AT  THE  MOMENT  WE  ALL  HAVE  ACCESS  TO  A  LOT  OF  FACTS.

THE  INTERNET  HAS  REALLY  CHANGED  EVERYTHING  IN  THAT  RESPECT.

BECAUSE  WE  DON’T  HAVE  TO  SPEND  HOURS  AT  A  LIBRARY  SEARCHING  THROUGH  BOOKS.

HOWEVER,  REMEMBER  THAT  OBTAINING  FACTS  IS  USEFUL  IF  YOU  WANT  TO  PASS  A  TEST.

BUT  WHAT  WE’RE  TRYING  TO  DO  HERE  IS  LOOK  AT  WHAT  THESE  FACTS

ARE  TELLING  US.

*

A  QUICK  NOTE  ABOUT  MY  USE  OF  THE  WORD  “NATURE”,

WHEN  I  USE  THE  WORD  NATURE,  I’M  NOT  JUST  TALKING  ABOUT  THE  TREES

AND  THE  OCEANS,  BUT  I’M  ALSO  TALKING  ABOUT  THE  NATURE  OF  THE  UNIVERSE,

THE  STARS  AND  THE  PLANETS,  THE  BIG  BANG  AND  WHAT  CAME  AFTER  IT  AND

MAYBE  SOMEDAY  WHAT  CAME  BEFORE  IT.

*

CHAPTER  NINE

*

” WHAT  THE  FUCK  ARE  WE  ANYWAY “

*

MANY  OF  US  DON’T  BOTHER  TO  ASK

THIS  SIMPLE  QUESTION,

MAYBE  BECAUSE  IT  TURNS  OUT  TO  BE  A  VERY  COMPLICATED  ONE.

AND  ONE  THAT’S  LOADED  WITH  A  LOT  OF  CONTROVERSY.

BUT  IF  WE  DO  ASK  IT,  WE  WILL  OFTEN  SETTLE

FOR  A  GENERAL  DEFINITION  THAT  WE  LEARNED  IN  HIGH  SCHOOL,

OR  READ  OFF  OUR  LAP  TOPS,

AND  IT  WILL  TELL  US  SOMETHING  LIKE,

 WE’RE  MAMMALS  OR  HOMO  SAPIENS  BLAH  BLAH  BLAH

AND  THEN  WE’LL  SAY  “OH”  AND  GET  ON  WITH  MORE

IMPORTANT  MATTERS.

*

NOW  IF  YOU  ASKED  A  ZEN  MASTER  THIS  QUESTION,

THERE’S  A  GOOD  POSSIBILITY,  HE’D  SLAP  YOU  ACROSS  THE  FACE

JUST  FOR  ASKING.

BUT  I  DON’T  REALLY  KNOW  ANY  ZEN  MASTERS.

BUT  I  DO  SEE THE  POINT.

THERE  MAY  BE  A  CERTAIN  ARROGANCE  IN  ASKING

CERTAIN  QUESTIONS.

*

AND  THEN  AS  YOU  MAY  OF  FOUND  OUT,

IF  YOU  LOOK  FOR  THESE  ANSWERS  FROM  ONE  OF  THE  MANY  SPIRITUAL

SOURCES  AVAILABLE .

 YOU’LL  GET  A  WHOLE  OTHER  OPINION  AS  TO  WHY  THE  HUMAN  RACE  EXISTS.

*

BUT  WHAT  I’M  TRYING  TO  DO  HERE,  IS  TO  TAKE  A  SOME  WHAT  OF  A  SCIENTIFIC

APPROACH  TO  THESE  BIG  QUESTIONS.

SO  I’VE  BEEN  OBSESSED  WITH  THIS  SIMPLE  BUT  COMPLICATED  QUESTION,

“WHAT  THE  FUCK  AM  I”

“OR  WHAT  THE  FUCK  ARE  WE”,

FOR  THE  PAST  35  YEARS  OR  SO.

I  KNOW  THAT’S  A  LONG  TIME  TO  HAVE  AN  OBSESSION,

BUT  AS  I  STATED  EARLIER,  IT’S  NOT  MY  ONLY  OBSESSION,

 SO  I  CAN  CHANGE  OFF  NOW  AND  THEN.

*

SO  WHAT  I’M  REALLY  ASKING  HERE  IS,

 HOW  DOES  A  HUMAN  BEING  FIT  INTO  THIS  NATURAL  WORLD.

BOTH  ON  THIS  NATURAL   EARTH  AND  IN  THE  NATURE  OF  THE  UNIVERSE.

AND  ALSO,  HOW  DO  WE  VIEW  OURSELVES  AS  PART  OF  THE  NATURAL  UNIVERSE.

OR  DO  WE  ACTUALLY  VIEW  OURSELVES  AS  APART  AND  SEPARATE  FROM  NATURE.

AND  IF  DO,  WHY  WE  DO.

*

SO  THE  WAY  I  SEE  IT,  IF  YOU  DON’T  BELIEVE  WE  WERE   PLACED  HERE

BY  A  SUPERNATURAL  BEING  OR  SOMETHING  SIMILAR,

THEN  YOU  HAVE  TO  ACCEPT  THAT  WE  ARE  A  CREATION

OF  THE  UNIVERSE  AND  OF  THE  NATURAL  WORLD  THAT  WE  FIND  OURSELVES  LIVING  IN.

NOW  THERE  ARE  ALSO  SOME  PEOPLE,  EVEN  SOME  SCIENTISTS,

WHO  MAY  NOT  BELIEVE  IN  A  TRADITIONAL  GOD,  BUT

STILL  BELIEVE  THERE  IS  A  GOD  WHO  IS  RESPONSIBLE  FOR  THE

WORKINGS  OF  THE  UNIVERSE.

THUS  THE  QUOTE  BY  EINSTEIN  “GOD  DOESN’T  PLAY  DICE

WITH  THE  UNIVERSE”

*

BUT  EVEN  THOUGH  EINSTEIN  MAY  HAVE  HAD  HIS  OWN  IDEAS

ABOUT  A  HIGHER  POWER,  AND  HE  MAY  HAVE  EVEN  LET  IT

GUIDE  HIS  RESEARCH  AT  TIMES,  HE  STILL  ADHERED  TO  THE  FACTS

OF  WHAT  SCIENCE  SHOWED  HIM.

IN  OTHER  WORDS  THE  FACTS  TOOK  PRECEDENCE  OVER  HIS  BELIEFS.

*

SO  BEFORE  YOU  READ  ON,   IT  BE  A  GOOD  IDEA

TO  ASK  YOURSELF  IF  YOU  ARE  AT  LEAST  WILLING  TO  ACCEPT

THE  FACTS.

*

ANYWAY,  SCIENCE  AND  THE  TRUTHS  IT  HAS  PROVEN,

 CONTINUALLY  SHOW  US

THAT  WE  ARE  A  PRODUCT  OF  THE  EARTH  AND  THE  UNIVERSE

THAT  CREATED  IT.

*

SO  BACK  TO  MY ORIGINAL  QUESTION,

WHAT  THE  FUCK  ARE  WE,

AND  HOW  DO  WE  FIT  IN  WITH  THE  NATURAL  WORLD ?

*

I’M  TRYING  TO  TAKE  A  LAYMEN’S  APPROACH,

 TO  WHERE  HUMAN  BEINGS

FIT  IN  WITH  NATURE  AND  THE  UNIVERSE.

PARTLY  BECAUSE   THERE  IS  STILL  SO  MUCH  WE  STILL  DON’T  KNOW  ABOUT

THE  UNIVERSE  AND  THE  EARTH  AND  EVEN  US.

*

I  LOVE  SCIENCE,  BUT  IT  HAS  ITS  LIMITS  AND  SOMETIMES  YOU  CAN  GET

SO  OVERWHELMED  AND  DISTRACTED  BY  THE  MATH

AND  THE  TECHNICALITY  OF  THE  INFORMATION,

THAT  YOU  CAN  MISS  THE  POINT

*

SO  HERE’S  AN  EXAMPLE  WHERE  SCIENCE  CAN  COMPLICATE  THINGS  FOR  US.

YOU  CAN  AQUIRE  AND  ENDLESS  AMOUNT  OF  INFORMATION  ABOUT  THE  SUN.

EVERYTHING  FROM  THE  SPEED  OF  ITS  ROTATION  RELATIVE  TO  THE  UNIVERSE,

OR  THE  CORE  TEMPERATURE  COMPARED  TO  THE  SURFACE  TEMPERATURE,

OR  ITS  CIRCUMFERENCE  AND  DISTANCE  FROM  THE  EARTH,  AND  ON  AND  ON.

*

BUT  AS  LAYMEN,  WHAT  WE’RE  AFTER  IS  THE  MORE  SIMPLE  AND  OBVIOUS  FACTS,

ABOUT  THE  SUN.

FACTS  LIKE,  THE  ENERGY  FROM  THE  SUN  IS  ONE  OF  THE  REASONS

WHY  THINGS  GROW  AND  CONTINUE  TO  GROW  ON  THE  PLANET  EARTH,  INCLUDING  US.

*

ANOTHER  FACT  IS  THAT

  SCIENTISTS  STILL  SEEMS  TO  KNOW  VERY  LITTLE  ABOUT  THE

VERY  ORGAN  WE  USE  TO  OBSERVE  THE  WORLD  WITH.

IN  OTHER  WORDS,  WE  DON’T FULLY  UNDERSTAND  THE  VERY  TOOL

WE  USE  TO  PERCEIVE  THE  WORLD  WE’RE  TRYING  TO  FIGURE  OUT.

I’M  TALKING  ABOUT  THE  BRAIN  AND  THE  MIND,  IN  CASE  YOU  WERE  WONDERING.

THAT’S  LIKE  LOOKING  THROUGH  A  MICROSCOPE,

  BUT  YOUR  NOT  ENTIRELY  SURE  HOW  IT  WORKS,

OR  EVEN  IF  ITS  WORKING  CORRECTLY.

*

AND  NOW  SCIENCE  HAS  REVEALED  NEW  INFORMATION  ABOUT  SMALLER  PARTICLES

  I’M  NOT  GOING  TO  GO  ALL  FUCKING  QUANTUM  PHYSICS  ON  YOU,

BUT  WHAT  THEY  DISCOVERED  IS  THAT

THE  OBSERVER  HAS  A  DIRECT  EFFECT  ON  THE  THING  BEING  OBSERVED.

WHICH  MEANS  YOU  BECOME  PART  OF  THE  EXPERIMENT

JUST  BY  LOOKING.

PRIOR  TO  THAT,  WE  ALWAYS  THOUGHT  WE  COULD  OBSERVE

THINGS  AS  AN  OBJECTIVE  OBSERVER.

*

ANYWAY,

 SCIENCE  DOES  GIVE  US  A  LOT  OF  GOOD  FACTS  TO  GO  ON,

 FACTS  ABOUT  THE  PHYSICAL  MAKE-UP  OF  OUR  BODIES,

AND  ALSO  THE  WORLD  AND  UNIVERSE  WE  LIVE  IN.

WE  EVEN  KNOW  A  LOT  ABOUT  THE  PROBABLE  BEGINNING

OF  OUR  UNIVERSE.

HOWEVER  WE  STILL  DON’T  KNOW  WHERE  THAT  ENERGY  CAME  FROM

THAT  ACTUALLY  CREATED  THE  UNIVERSE  IN  THE  FIRST  PLACE.

AND  THERE’S  DARK  MATTER  THAT  YOU  CAN  ADD  TO  THE  LIST  OF  UNKNOWNS.

*

BUT  SCIENCE  HAS  SHOWN  US  A  LOT  OF  COOL  FACTS,  FACTS  LIKE

  ALL  ORGANIC  MATTER  CONTAINING  CARBON,  INCLUDING  MAN,

WAS  ORIGINALLY  PRODUCED  IN  THE  STARS.

AND  ONE  WELL  KNOWN  SCIENTIST,  EVEN   COINED  A  PHRASE’

“WE’RE  ALL  MADE  OF  STARS”,

WHICH  THE  NEW  AGE  SPIRITUALISTS  REALLY  LOVED,

BECAUSE  IT  CONNECTED  US  TO  THE  STARS  AND  TO  THE  HEAVENS,

AND  ON  ONE  LEVEL  IT’S  TRUE.

BUT  THEY  FORGOT  TO  MENTION  THAT

DOG  SHIT  AND  CANCER  ARE  ALSO  MADE  FROM  STAR  STUFF.

I  GUESS  THAY  DECIDED  TO  LEAVE  THAT  LITTLE  FACT  OUT.

*

ANYWAY,  POINT  BEING,  ALL  ORGANIC  MATTER  IS  MADE  OF  THE  SAME  STUFF.

SO  THERE  IS  AN  ACTUAL  CONNECTION  TO  THE  STARS,

AT  LEAST  ON  SOME  BASIC  PHYSICAL  LEVEL.

AS  A  MATTER  OF  FACT,  THE  SAME  BASIC  KINDS  OF  MATTER

EXIST  THROUGH  OUT  THE  WHOLE  KNOWN  UNIVERSE,

INCLUDING  EARTH.

AND  IT’S  ALL  MADE  OF  THE  SAME  BASIC  92  ELEMENTS  FOUND  IN  NATURE.

WELL …..  AT  THE  MOMENT  ANYWAY.

ELEMENTS,  BY  THE  WAY,  IS  THE  STUFF  THAT  STUFF’S  MADE  OF.

*

AND  THEN  THERE  ARE  ALSO  MAN  MADE  ELEMENT

WHICH  WE  DON’T  CONSIDER  NATURAL.

AND  THAT’S  PARTLY  WHAT  THIS  BOOK  IS  ABOUT.

BECAUSE  I  SEE  IT  A  LITTLE  DIFFERENTLY.

*

CHAPTER  FIVE

*

” WE  DREW  A  LINE  IN  THE  SAND “

*

SO  WE  KNOW  THE  BASIC  PHYSICAL  MAKE  UP  THE  THE  HUMAN  BODY

 AS  WELL  AS  THE  UNIVERSE.

AND  SCIENCE  HAS  PROVEN,  AT  LEAST  ON  SOME  PHYSICAL  LEVEL,

 THAT  WE  ARE  A  PRODUCT  OF  THE  EARTH

 AND  THE  UNIVERSE  THAT  CREATED  IT.

BUT  THERE  STILL  SEEMS  TO  BE  A  BIG  QUESTION  ABOUT

 HOW  EXACTLY  HUMAN  BEINGS  REALLY  FIT  INTO  THE  NATURAL  WORLD.

OR  AT  LEAST  HOW  WE  VIEW  OURSELVES  IN  RELATION  TO  IT.

*

SO  AT  THIS  POINT,  YOU  MAY  WANT  TO  ASK  YOURSELF  IF  THE  EARTH

AND  THE  UNIVERSE  THAT  CREATED  IT  IS  YOUR  TRUE  MOTHER  AND  CREATOR.

AND  THEN  ASK  YOURSELF,  WHAT  THAT  MEANS  TO  YOU,

OR  PERHAPS  YOU  DON’T  EVEN  GIVE  A  SHIT  WHERE  YOU  CAME  FROM.

*

WE  SEEM  TO  VIEW  OURSELVES  AS  PART  OF  NATURE,

BUT  THEN  AT  THE  SAME  TIME  WE  SEEM  TO  CONSIDER  OURSELVES

 SEPARATE  FROM  NATURE  AND  THE  UNIVERSE.

WE  SEE  OURSELVES  AS  GENIUS’S  AT  MANIPULATING  NATURE

AND  IN  SOME  RESPECTS  WE  EVEN   VIEW  OURSELVES  AS  RULERS  OVER  IT.

*

IF  YOU  LOOK  UP  NATURE  IN  THE  DICTIONARY

YOU’LL  DISCOVER  SOME  INTERESTING  FACTS

ABOUT  HOW  MOST  PEOPLE  VIEW  MANS  PLACE  IN  NATURE.

*

SO  HERE  A  FEW  OF  THE  DEFINITIONS  OF  “NATURE”

 AS  DEFINED  BY  WEBSTERS  DICTIONARY …

*

1 : THE  PHYSICAL  WORLD  AND  EVERYTHING  IN  IT

( SUCH  AS  PLANTS,  ANIMALS,  MOUNTAINS,

OCEANS,  STARS,  ETC. )

OR  EVERYTHING,  THAT  IS  NOT  MADE  BY  PEOPLE …..

2 : THE  NATURAL  FORCES  THAT  CONTROL

 WHAT  HAPPENS  IN  THE  WORLD …..

3 :  A  CREATIVE  AND  CONTROLLING  FORCE

IN  THE  UNIVERSE

*

IF  YOU  NOTICED,  WE’VE  SEEMED  TO  HAVE  DRAWN  A  PRETTY

CLEAR  LINE  AS  TO  WHAT  WE  CONSIDER  NATURAL.

SO  THE  PART  OF  THE  DEFINITION  THAT  INTERESTS  ME  THE  MOST  IS

THE  PART  STATING  THAT  EVERYTHING  THAT  IS  MADE  BY  PEOPLE

IS  NOT  CONSIDER  TO  BE  A  NATURAL  EVENT  IN  NATURE.

*

ACCORDING  TO  THIS  DEFINITION

THE  POPULAR  BELIEF

IS  THAT  WE  ARE  NATURE,

AND  WE  ARE  FROM  NATURE …

BUT …  OUR  FREEDOM  TO  MAKE  CHOICES  AND  OUR  ABILITY

 TO  CREATE  THINGS  FROM  NATURE,

LIKE  PLASTIC,  PLANES,  AND  CARS,

ARE  CONSIDERED  TO  BE  UN-NATURAL

OR  AT  LEAST  THINGS  THAT  WOULD  NORMALLY

NOT  HAVE  HAPPENED  IN  THE  NATURAL  WORLD.

*

SO  WE  BELIEVE  THAT  “EVERYTHING”  IS  NATURE,  INCLUDING  US,

BUT  SOMEHOW  HUMAN  BEINGS

 HAVE  OBTAINED  THE  ABILITY  TO  PERFORM  ACTS  THAT  WE  CONSIDER  UNNATURAL

AND  EFFECTS  THE  NATURAL  WORLD  IN  AN  UNNATURAL  WAY.

AND  SO  WE  NO  LONGER  CONSIDER  THEM  AS  ACTS  OF  NATURE.

*

SO  YOU  COULD  SAY  THAT  WE  BELIEVE

THAT  OUR  “EFFECT”  ON  THIS  WORLD  IS  NOT

   SOMETHING  THAT  WOULD  “NORMALLY”  HAPPEN  IN  NATURE.

WE  BELIEVE  THAT  EVERYTHING  IN  NATURE  IS  NATURAL,

EXCEPT  MANS  ACTIONS,  LIKE  BURNING OIL,

 OR  ANY  OF  MANS  INVENTIONS,

FROM  TOOTHPASTE  TO  ATOM  BOMBS.

*

SO  WE  CONSIDER  OURSELVES  TO  BE  NATURAL  AND  FROM  NATURE,

AND  PART  OF  NATURE.

BUT  AT  THE  SAME  TIME  WE  CONSIDER  OUR  ACTIONS  AS  AN

UNNATURAL  CONTRIBUTION  TO  NATURE  AND  THE  NATURAL  WORLD.

*

I’M  NOT  REALLY  SURE  IF  I  CAN  WORD  IT  ANY  CLEARER  THAN  THAT.

BUT  FOR  THE  SAKE  OF  THIS  PHILOSOPHICAL  RANT,

I’M  REALLY  TRYING  TO  SHOW  EXACTLY  WHERE  MAN  HAS  DRAWN

 THE  DIVIDING  LINE  BETWEEN  NATURAL  AND  UN-NATURAL  EVENTS  IN  NATURE.

BECAUSE  THAT  IS  REALLY  WHAT  THIS  BOOK  IS  ABOUT.

*

SO  THE  GENERAL  BELIEF  AMOUNG  MANY  SCIENTISTS

AND  MANY  PEOPLE  AS  WELL.

 IS  THAT  WE’VE  OBTAINED  OUR  INTELLIGENCE

 SOMEWHERE  ALONG  THE  WAY  IN  OUR  EVOLUTION  ON  THE  PLANET,

WITH  HELP  FROM  THE  REST  OF  THE  UNIVERSE.

*

BUT  ENEN  THOUGH  MANY  OF  US  BELIEVE  THIS  TO  BE  TRUE,

WE  ALSO  SEEM  TO  BELIEVE  WE  HAVE  RISEN

 ABOVE  NATURE  IN  SOME  REGARDS.

AND  CAN  NOW,  THROUGH  OUR  INTELLECT

AND  OUR  FREE  WILL,

CHANGE  THE  COURSE  OF  NATURE,  IN  WHAT  MANY  CONSIDER  TO  BE,

IN  AN  UN-NATURAL  DIRECTION.

AS  THOUGH  WE  HAVE  NOW,

 SINGLE  HANDEDLY  RISEN  ABOVE  THE  NATURAL  COURSE  OF  NATURE.

PRETTY  IMPRESSIVE  OF  US  I’D  SAY.

*

AND  THAT’S  MY  POINT,  CAN  ANYTHING  THAT  IS  ONE  HUNDRED  PERCENT  NATURAL

AND  A  CREATION  OF  NATURE,  EVER  BE  AND  DO  SOMETHING  UNNATURAL ?

YES,  IMMORAL,  IGNORANT,  STUPID  AND  DESTRUCTIVE  MAYBE,

BUT  AREN’T  THESE  STILL  QUALITIES  OF  NATURE.

AND  ISN’T  IT  A  BELIEF  TO  SAY  OTHERWISE.

*

CHAPTER  SIX

*

” NATURE  CREATED  STUPIDITY,  I’M  JUST  THE  MIDDLE  MAN “

*

TO  RE-CAP  ONE  MORE  TIME…..

IT  WOULD  SEEM  THAT  MANS  ACTIONS  AND  CREATIONS

 ARE  WHERE  WE  DECIDED  TO  DRAW  THE  DIVIDING  LINE

BETWEEN  WHAT  IS  CONSIDER  NATURAL  AND  UNNATURAL.

*

MOST  PEOPLE  BELIEVE  THAT

  BECAUSE  WE  HAVE  A  FREE  WILL

AND  POSSIBLY  A  HIGHER  INTELLIGENCE

THAN  MOST  OF  THE  OTHER  FORMS  OF  LIFE  ON  THE  PLANET,

  THAT  MAN,  IN  SOME  WAYS,  IS  SEPARATE  FROM  THE  NATURAL  WORLD.

OR  ALEAST  SOME  OF  BELIEVE  WE  ARE  ABOVE  THE  NATURAL

ORDER  OF  THINGS.

*

AN  ATHEIST  MAY  STILL  BELIEVE  THAT  “FREE  WILL”  AND  “CHOICE”

WERE  GIVEN  TO  US  BY  NATURE,

BUT  BELIEVE  WE  MISS  USE  THIS  POWER  IN  UNNATURAL  WAYS.

SO  THEY  MIGHT  NOT  VIEW  THESE  ACTIONS  AS  ACT  OF  NATURE,

BUT  VIEW  THEM  RATHER  AS  AN  ACT  OF  MAN

*

SO  A  NATURAL  EVENT  WOULD  BE  A  METEOR  HITTING  THE  EARTH.

BUT  AN  AIRPLANE  CRASH  IS

CONSIDERED  AN  UNNATURAL  EVENT  IN  NATURE.

SIMPLE  ENOUGH.

*

NOW  THIS  IS  WHERE  I’LL  TAKE  A  LEAP  OF  FAITH,

AND  SUGGEST  THAT  THER’RE  BOTH  NATURAL  EVENTS  IN  NATURE.

*

TO  ME  IT  SEEMS

THAT  THE  IDEA  THAT  OUR  ACTIONS  ARE  SEPARATE

OR  ABOVE  NATURE  IN  ANY  WAY  AT  ALL,  WITHOUT  EXCEPTION,

 IS  REALLY  JUST  A  BELIEF.

MAYBE  NO  DIFFERENT  THAN  ANY  OTHER  RELIGIOUS  BELIEF.

*

AND  MAYBE  THE  TRUTH  IS  THAT  NATURE  IS,

 AND  ALWAYS  HAS  BEEN,  THE  CREATIVE  FORCE

OF  EVERYTHING  THAT  HAPPENS  IN  THE  UNIVERSE

AND  ON  THIS  PLANET.

*

INCLUDING  OUR  FREE  WILL  AND  OUR  POWER  OF  CHOICE,

AS  WELL  AS  OUR  INVENTIONS  AND  ANY  SO  CALLED  ACTS  AGAINST  NATURE,

OR  UNNATURAL  ACTS  IN  NATURE.

*

MOST  RELIGIONS  BELIEVE  THAT  FREE  WILL  WAS  GIVEN  TO  US  BY  GOD

AND  THAT’S  WHAT  SEPARATES  US  FROM  THE  ANIMALS

AND  THE  NATURAL  WORLD.

BUT  WHAT  SCIENCE  IS  SHOWING  US  IS  THAT  NATURE  HAS  CREATED  FREE  WILL,

OR  AT  LEAST  AN  ORGANISM  THAT  IS  CAPABLE  OF  FREE  WILL.

*

SO  IN  EFFECT  WHAT  I’M  SAYING,  IS  THAT  AN  ACT  OF  NATURE

AND  AN  UN-NATURAL  ACT  PERFORMED  BY  THE  HUMAN  RACE,

(THE  INVENTION  OF  PLASTIC,  TOXIC  WASTE,  ETC.  ETC.)

ARE  ONE  IN  THE  SAME.

AND  THAT  THE  DIFFERENCE  IS  JUST

SOMETHING  WE  CREATED  IN  OUR  “MINDS”.

A  MIND,  WHICH  BY  THE  WAY  WAS  ALSO  CREATED  BY  NATURE.

*

I  KNOW  SOME  MAY  SAY  THAT  IT’S  JUST  BE  A  MATTER  OF  SEMANTICS,

BUT  I  DON’T  THINK  SO.

I  THINK  IT’S  A  REAL  FLAW  IN  THE  THE  WAY  MANY  HUMAN  BEINGS

VIEW  THEMSELVES  IN  NATURE.

SO  IF  SOMEONE  SAID,  MAN  ALONE  HAS  THE  POWER  TO  BE  UNNATURAL,

 I  WOULD  HAVE  TO  SAY,

  THAT  NATURE”  HAS  THE  POWER  TO  BE  UN-NATURAL.

BECAUSE  YOU  CAN’T  HAVE  UN-NATURE,

THAT’S  LIKE  HAVING  UNREALITY.

*

SO  FOR  ME,  UN-NATURAL,  DOESN’T  REALLY  EXIST,

IT’S  AN  IMPOSSIBILITY,  A  BELIEF  CREATED  BY  THE  HUMAN  MIND.

BECAUSE  ANYTHING  THAT  HAPPENS  IN  NATURE  IS  NATURAL.

BECAUSE  EVERYTHING  IS  NATURE.

ALL  THE  REST  IS  FANTASY,

BUT  I  WILL  ACKNOWLEDGE  THAT  NATURE  CAN  FANTASIZE.

I  KNOW  I’M  ON  A  SLIPPERY  SLOPE  HERE.

BUT  REALITY  IS  A  VERY  SLIPPERY  SLOPE,  JUST  LOOK  AROUND.

*

IT  ALWAYS  SEEMED  ODD  TO  ME,

THAT  WE  CREDIT  EVERYTHING  IN  THE  KNOWN  UNIVERSE

 AS  A  CREATION  OF  NATURE,  INCLUDING  OURSELVES.

BUT  AS  SOON  AS  IT  COMES  TO  OUR  INDIVIDUAL  POWER

TO  MAKE  CHOICES  TO  INVENT  TO  CREATE  AND  TO  THINK,

 THEN  WE  TAKE  ONE  HUNDRED  PERCENT  OF  THE  CREDIT.

AS  THOUGH  SOMEHOW  WE  INVENTED  OUR  OWN  BODIES  AND  MINDS,

IF  THAT’S  NOT  PICKING  YOURSELF  UP  BY  YOUR  OWN  FUCKING

BOOT  STRAPS,  THEN  I  DON’T  KNOW  WHAT  IS.

*

IN  OTHER  WORDS,

 WE  DECIDED  THAT  WHEN  WE  MAKE  A  CHOICE  OR  A  DECISION,

OR  CREATE  OR  INVENT  SOMETHING,

AT  THAT  POINT,  WE  ARE  NO  LONGER  UNDER

THE  UMBRELLA  OF  NATURE.

AND  CHOOSE  TO  BELIEVE  WE  ARE  NOW  ACTING  ALONE

AND  SEPARATE  FROM  NATURE  AND  THE  NATURAL  WORLD.

THE  NATURAL  WORLD  WHICH  BY  THE  WAY

CREATED  US  IN  THE  FIRST  PLACE  AND  SUSTAINS  OUR  LIFE  FROM  MOMENT  TO  MOMENT

AND  FROM  BREATH  TO  BREATH.

*

FROM  A  HUMAN  BEINGS  POINT  OF  VIEW  WE  WILL  ALWAYS  CONSIDER

MANY  OF  MANS  ACTIONS  AS  UNNATURAL.

LIKE  CREATING  TOXIC  WASTE,  THE  ACTIONS  OF  A  MASS  MURDERER

AND  ESPECIALLY  THE  CHILD  MOLESTER,

BUT  I’M  NOT  SURE  UN-NATURAL  IS  THE  CORRECT  WORD.

*

NOW  BEFORE  YOU  FUCKING  WITCH  HUNTERS  START  LOOKING  FOR  YOU  MATCHES,

 TAKE  A  BREATH  AND  TRY  TO  UNDERSTAND  WHAT  I’M  SAYING.

FOR  THE  RECORD,  IN  NO  WAY  WHAT  SO  EVER,  AM  I  CONDONING

 THESE  SICK  AND  PERVERSE  BEHAVIORS.

AND  HOW  OUR  SOCIETY  CHOOSES  TO  PROTECT  ITSELF  FROM  TOXIC  WASTE,

 THE  MASS  MURDERER  OR  THE  CHILD  MOLESTER,

ARE  VERY  IMPORTANT  ISSUES.

*

BUT  WHAT  I’M  TRYING  TO  SAY  HERE,  IS  THAT

OUR  VIEW  OF  NATURE  HAS  TO  BE  BROADENED

IT  HAS  TO  INCLUDE  THE  UN-NATURAL  ACTS  AND  BEHAVIORS  OF  MAN.

BECAUSE  THEY  ARE  ONE  IN  THE  SAME.

IN  MY  OPINION  THE  WORD  UNNATURAL  IS  A  VERY  MISLEADING  WORD

WHEN  USED  IN  CERTAIN  CONTEXTS.

*

I  KNOW  WHEN  PEOPLE  THINK  OF  NATURE  THEY  JUST  WANT  TO  IMAGINE

THE  CHIRPING  BIRDS  AND  THE  BEAUTIFUL  TREES,  OR  THE  SMILE  OF  A  NEW  BORN  BABY

HELD  IN  IT’S  MOTHERS  LOVING  ARMS.

AND  IT  IS  ALL  THOSE  THINGS,  BUT  IT’S  A  HELL  OF  A  LOT  MORE  TOO.

*

IN  A  WAY  WHAT  I’M  SAYING  HERE  IS  THAT  THESE  ISSUES  AND  EVENTS  SHOULD  BE  LOOKED  AT

AS  ACTS  OF  NATURE  RATHER  THAN  ACTS  OF  THE  DEVIL  OR  ACTS  OF  AN  EVIL  PERSON.

I’M  NOT  SAYING  I  DON’T  BELIEVE  IN  CAPITAL  PUNISHMENT.

I  MAY  EVEN  FLIP  THE  SWITCH.

AND  I’M  NOT  NECESSARILY  OPPOSED  TO  CASTRATION  FOR  A  CONVICTED  CHILD  MOLESTER.

BUT  AM  TRYING  TO  CHANGE  OUR  ATTITUDE  TOWARD  THESE  DANGEROUS  BEHAVIORS.

AWAY  FROM  A  HOLIER  THAN  THOU  ATTITUDE.

BECAUSE  HOLINESS  HAS  NOTHING  TO  DO  WITH  IT.

*

 IF  YOU  SAY  MAN  IS  EVIL  OR  CAPABLE  OF  EVIL,

THEN  YOU  ALSO  HAVE  TO  SAY  NATURE  IS  EVIL  AND  CAPABLE  OF  EVIL.

BUT  YOU  CAN’T  HAVE  IT  BOTH  WAYS.

BECAUSE  NATURE  IS  WHAT  WE  ARE  AT  OUR  CORE

AND  WE’LL  NEVER  BE  MORE  THAN  NATURE,

AND  WE’LL  NEVER  BE  LESS.

AND  SOMETIMES  NATURE  IS  SICK  AND  VIOLENT  AND  DESTRUCTIVE  AND  EVIL

IF  YOU  WANT  TO  USE  THAT  WORD.

*

I  THINK  IT’S  TIME  TO  REALLY  START  VIEWING  NATURE  AS  OUR  TRUE  CREATOR.

BECAUSE  THAT’S  WHERE  ALL  THE  EVIDENCE  POINTS.

AND  TO  BEGIN  TO  ACCEPT  WHAT  NATURE  IS  CAPABLE  OF.

WHICH  COULD  BE  A  LOT  MORE  THAN  WE  CARE  TO  ADMIT.

 MY  POINT  IS,  THAT  IN  NATURE  THERE  ARE  CONSTANT  DEVIATIONS  AND  VARIATIONS

FROM  THE  IDEAL,  OR  SHOULD  I  SAY  WHAT  WE  BELIEVE

THE  IDEAL  SHOULD  BE,

IT  WOULD  SEEM  THAT’S  HOW  NATURE  APPEARS  TO  WORKS,

ONLY  BECAUSE  THAT  IS  WHAT’S  HAPPENING.

*

THERE  IS  AN  ANALOGY  OF  A  PLANE  HEADING  TOWARDS  IT’S  DESTINATION.

THE  PLANE  DOESN’T  FLY  IN  ONE  STRAIGHT  DIRECTION.

IT  CONSTANTLY  GOES  OFF  COURSE  AND  THEN  CORRECTS  ITS  DIRECTION

UNTIL  IT  ARRIVES  AT  ITS  DESTINATION.

*

NATURE  COULD  BE  HEADING  IN  A  DIRECTION  OR  IN  ALL  POSSIBLE  DIRECTIONS

AT  THE  SAME  TIME,  I  DON’T  KNOW

BUT  I  DO  SEE,  THAT  ON  EARTH,

 FORMS  OF  NATURE  STRIVE  TO  SURVIVE.

LIKE  A  WEED  THAT  POPS  UP  IN  THE  CRACK  IN  A  CURB

AT  A  BUSY  INTERSECTION.  IT  JUST  SEEMS  LIKE  NO  MATTER  WHAT

IT  IS,  NATURE  IN  ALL  ITS  FORMS  IS  STRIVING  TO  EXPAND  ANY  WAY  IT  CAN.

*

SOMETIMES  WE  DON’T  LIKE  CERTAIN  FORMS  OF  NATURE  TO  EXPAND,

LIKE  CANCER  OR  THE  WEEDS  ON  YOUR  LAWN.

AND  SOMETIMES  WE  DON’T  LIKE  MANS  NATURE  EXPANDING  IN  A

DIRECTION  WE  THINK  IS  THREATENING  TO  THE  GOOD  OF  MANKIND.

SO  WE  TRY  TO  PREVENT  IT  FROM  TAKING  IT’S  NATURAL  COURSE,

BUT  WHAT  I’M  SAYING  IS  THAT  US  TRYING  TO  PREVENT  A  NATURAL  COURSE,

IS  THE  NATURAL  COURSE.

*

AS  I  WROTE  IN  THE  BEGINNING  OF  THIS  BOOK,

DARWIN  ONCE  WROTE  THAT,

“ONE  DESERVES  NO  CREDIT  FOR  ANYTHING…. NOR  OUGHT  ONE  TO  BLAME  OTHERS”

*

 WHAT  DARWIN  IS  ACTUALLY  SAYING  IS  THAT  JEFFREY  DOHMER  SHOULDN’T

BE  HELD  IN  BLAME,  AND  MOTHER  THERESA  SHOULDN’T

BE  PRAISED.

THAT’S  SOME  HEAVY  SHIT,  THAT  DETERMINISTS  LOVE  TO  HEAR

AND  THE  RELIGIOUS  AND  THE  MORALLY  JUSTIFIED  PROBABLY  HATE.

*

SO  TO  GO  BACK  TO  THE

ONGOING  DEBATE  AS  THE  WHETHER  FREE  WILL  EXISTS,

AND  DO  WE  HAVE  IT.

THE  THEORY  BEHIND  THE  BELIEF  THAT WE  DON’T,  IS  BASED  ON  THE  IDEA

OF  CAUSE  AND  EFFECT  GUIDING  OUR  EVERY  MOVE,

FROM  OUR  GENES  TO  WHERE  WE  LIVE  TO  WHAT  WE  EAT  AND  ON  AND  ON.

IT  SEEMS  TO  SAY  THAT  ALL  OUR  ACTIONS  ARE  PREDETERMINED,

WHICH  SEEMS  TO  MAKE  US  HUMAN  BEINGS  OUT  TO  BE  SOME  KIND  OF  ROBOTS.

*

BUT  I  DON’T  THINK  IT’S  THAT  SIMPLE,

 THOUGH  THERE  MAY  BE  SOME  TRUTH  TO  IT.

AND  IT’S  GOOD  TO  REMEMBER  THAT  THE  TRUTH  DOES’T  REALLY  CARE

WHAT  WE  THINK  AND  FEEL  ANYWAY.

AND  IT  COULD  BE  TRUE,  LIKE  IT  OR  NOT,  BUT  IT’S  PROBABLY  IMPOSSIBLE

TO  PROVE  ANYWAY,  AT  LEAST  FOR  NOW.

*

  BUT  THERE  ARE  MANY  PEOPLE  WHO  QUESTION  THE  IDEA

OF  HUMAN  FREE  WILL  AND  IT  GETS  TO  BE  A  VERY  HEAVY  SUBJECT.

BUT  YOU  CAN  GET  AN  IDEA  OF  IT.

*

IF  YOU  LOOK  AT  SAY,  THE  DIRECTION  HUMANITY  TAKES  AT  ANY  GIVEN  TIME

IN  HISTORY  OR  PRESENT  DAY,  YOU  HAVE  TO  ADMIT  THAT  THERE  ARE

TRILLIONS  OF  FACTORS  INVOLVED,  ALL  TAKING  PLACE  AT  THE  SAME  TIME.

FROM  THE  THE  DIFFERENT  CULTURES  OR  THE  PEOPLE  THAT  ARE  IN  POWER.

TO  THE  SOURCES  OF  ENERGY  WE’RE  USING  AT  THE  TIME,

 OUR  LEVEL  OF  TECHNOLOGY  AT  THE  TIME,  WARS,

CHANGING  ECONOMIES,  WORLD  LEADERS  AND  SO  ON.

*

AND  IF  YOU  LOOK  CLOSELY,  THE  LIST  OF  CAUSES  AND  EFFECTS

 JUST  KEEP  GOING  ON  AND  ON,  IT’S  A  PANDORAS  BOX.

AND  THEN  YOU’LL  ALSO  FIND  THE  SAME  THING  TRUE  ON  AN  INDIVIDUAL  BASIS.

FROM  WHAT  CAREER  YOU  CHOOSE  TO  THE  PERSON  YOU  MARRY,

TO  WHERE  AND  WHAT  YOU  WIND  UP  EATING  FOR  DINNER.

*

IF  YOU  TAKE  ANY  ONE  DECISION  YOU  EVER  MADE  IN  LIFE  AND  TRY  TO  PLAY  THEM

IN  REVERSE  YOU’LL  FIND  A  TRILLION  CAUSES  AND  EFFECTS  THAT  BRANCH

OUT  IN  ALL  DIRECTIONS.

AND  EACH  FACTOR  IN  SOME  WAY  MAY  HAVE  CHANGED  THE  OUT  COME

OF  YOUR  DECISION.

*

THE  ANALOGY  THAT  COMES  TO  MY  MIND  IS  WHEN  YOU  LOOK  THROUGH

A  KALEIDOSCOPE,  AND  AS  YOU  SLOWLY  TURN  IT  YOU  START  TO  SEE

ALL  THE  SHAPES  AND  COLORS  INSIDE  ALL  CHANGING

AT  THE  SAME  TIME.

EVERY  FACTOR  EFFECTING  ANOTHER  FACTOR,

ALL  INTERCONNECTED  AND  PART  OF  TRILLIONS  OF  CAUSE’S  AND  EFFECT’S

ALL  HAPPENING  SIMULTANEOUSLY  IN  THE  PRESENT.

*

SO  HERE’S  A  VERY  VERY  VERY  SIMPLE  ANALOGY,

FOR  ALL  YOU  KNOW  YOUR  MOTHER  COULD  HAVE  SNEEZED  AT  JUST

THE  RIGHT  TIME  TO  CAUSE  ONE  SPERM  TO  FERTILIZE  HER  EGG  RATHER  THAN  ANOTHER  ONE.

THAT  LITTLE  PHYSICAL  JOLT  AND  POOF,

 YOU  SHOW  UP  IN  ABOUT  IN  ABOUT  NINE  MONTHS  INSTEAD  OF  SOME  OTHER  SHMUCK.

NOW  THE  REASON  SHE  SNEEZED  AT  THAT  PARTICULAR  TIME  WAS  BECAUSE  THE

AIR  CONDITIONING  WAS  ON  THE  BLINK,  SO  THE  WINDOW  WAS  OPEN

AND  THE  LANDSCAPERS   WERE  TRIMMING  THE  BUSHES  THAT  DAY,

 BECAUSE  IT  HAD  RAINED  THE  DAY  BEFORE.

SEE  WHERE  I’M  GOING  WITH  THIS.

NOW  TRY  TO  IMAGINE  IF  YOU  CAN,

 THAT  YOU  HAD  THE  ABILITY  TO  TRACK

EVERY  SINGLE  EVENT  THAT  EVER  TOOK  PLACE,  FROM  THE  BIG  BANG  FORWARD.

I  KNOW  THATS  IMPOSSIBLE  BUT  FOR  A  MOMENT  IMAGINE  THAT  IT  COULD  BE  DONE.

EACH  AND  EVERY  EVENT  FROM  THE  MOVEMENT  OF  AN  ATOM  TO  THE

SPINNING  OF  THE  EARTH,  TO  THAT  SNEEZE  YOUR  MOTHER  HAD  THAT  DAY.

*

IF  YOU  COULD  SEE  EVERY  EVENT  AND  THE  ORDER  IT  HAPPENED  IN.

WHAT  DO  YOU  THINK  YOU’D  SEE ?

WELL…… I’M  LAUGHING,  BECAUSE  IT’S  PRETTY  COMPLICATED  TO  EVEN  IMAGINE.

BUT  THERE  IS  ONE  THING  THAT  SEEMS  OBVIOUS  TO  ME,

AND  THAT’S  THE  INTERCONNECTEDNESS  OF  THINGS.

A  GIANT  TREMENDOUS  ORCHESTRA  OF  EVENTS  AND  THE  CAUSES

OF  THOSE  EVENTS  ALL  TAKING  PLACE  TOGETHER,

AT  THE  SAME  TIME.

MAYBE  SOME  OF  THOSE  EVENTS  ARE  HAPPENING  RANDOMLY,  I  DON’T  KNOW,

 BUT  I  DO  KNOW  THAT  MANY  OF  THOSE  EVENTS

AND  MAYBE  EVEN  ALL  OF  THEM,

ARE  EFFECTING  OTHER  EVENTS.

*

AND I  DO  KNOW  A  COLD  FRONT  CAUSED  IT  TO  RAIN  THAT  MONDAY,

THAT  CAUSED  THE  LANDSCAPERS  TO  COME  THE  FOLLOWING  DAY,

AND  WHEN  THE  PHONE  RANG  AT  THAT  PRECISE  TIME

THAT  CAUSED  YOUR  DEAR  MOTHER,

 WHO  HAPPENED  TO  GET  LAID  THE  NIGHT  BEFORE,

AND  HAPPENED  TO  HAVE  A  BUNCH  OF  LITTLE  POSSIBILITIES

 SWIMMING  AROUND  HER  OVARIES,

WALKED  PAST  THAT  WINDOW  THAT  HAPPENED  TO  BE  OPEN,

BECAUSE  SHE  HAD  OPENED  IT  THE  NIGHT  BEFORE,

  BECAUSE  OF  THE  CONDENSER  THAT  WENT  BAD  IN  THE  AIR  CONDITIONING  UNIT,TWO  DAYS  EARLIER,

 THAT  HAPPENED  TO  BE  MADE  IN  CHINA,  NOT  THAT  THAT’S  RELEVANT,

 WELL  ACTUALLY  IT  IS  RELEVANT  BECAUSE  EVERY-THING  IS  RELEVANT,

ANYWAY  THE  AIR  CONDITIONER  BEING  OUT  OF  COMMISSION,

 CAUSED  MOM  TO  OPEN

THE  WINDOW  THAT  LET  THE  POLLEN  IN,  THAT  CAUSED  HER  TO

SNEEZE  AT  THAT  PRECISE  MOMENT,  AS  SHE  HEADED  FOR  THE  PHONE,

AND  THEN  THE  SNEEZE,  THAT  JOLTED  THAT  LITTLE  SPERM  TO  SWIM

OFF  IN  ANOTHER  DIRECTION  LEAVING  A  PERFECT  OPEN

FOR  THAT  OTHER  LITTLE  SPERM,  WHICH  HELPED  TO  CREATE  YOU,

 HAPPENED  TO  GET  TO  MOMS  EGG  FIRST………. SHEWWWW

NOW  THAT  SNEEZE  WAS  PARTLY  RESPONSIBLE  FOR  YOU  BEING  BORN.

GOD  BLESS YOU…… I  MEAN  GAZUNTITE.

*

NOW  TO  REALLY  GET  A  FEEL  FOR  DETERMINISM  OR  THE  POWER  OF  CAUSE  AND  EFFECT,

YOU  HAVE  TO  THINK  ABOUT  THIS  LITTLE  ANALOGY

AND  MULTIPLY  IT  BY  TRILLIONS  AND  TRILLION  AND  TRILLION

AND  THEN  SOME.

*

SO  YOU  MAY  ASK,

 HOW  DOES  OUR  FREE  WILL  PLAYS  INTO  ALL  THAT,

ARE  WE  JUST  ONE  BIG  CAUSE  AND  EFFECT  BE  PUSHED  PRODED  COAXED

AND  DRIVEN  IN  A  PARTICULAR  DIRECTION  WITHOUT  US  EVEN  REALIZING  IT,

WELL…. SOME  WELL  EDUCATED  INTELLIGENT  PEOPLE  WITH  HIGHER  IQ’S

THAN  ME  SEEM  TO  THINK  SO.

BUT  THEY  CAN’T,  AS  OF  YET,  PROOVE  IT,  SUCKS  FOR  THEM.

*

BUT  THE  ONE  THING  WE  MAY  AGREE  ON  IS  THAT

WE  DO  HAVE  OUR  PART  IN  THE  WORLD  OF  CAUSE  AND  EFFECT,  IT  MAY  BE  A  SMALL

PART,  I  DON’T  REALLY  KNOW,  I’M  NOT  SURE  ANYONE  DOES.

BUT  WE  ARE  PART  OF  THIS  TREMENDOUS  MOVEMENT  OF  CAUSE’S  AND  EFFECTS

THAT  ARE  GOING  ON  IN  NATURE  AND  THE  UNIVERSE.

ALL  THE  TIME.

BECAUSE  IF  YOUR  READING  THIS,  YOU  EXIST,

 AND  THAT  MAKES  YOU  A  CAUSE  THAT  EFFECTS  THINGS,

AS  WELL  AS  SOMETHING  THAT  GETS  EFFECTED  BY  THINGS.

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CHAPTER

*

”  IS  NATURE  POSING  AS  GOD “

*

THE  NATURAL  WORLD  WE  LIVE  IN  IS  REALLY  SO  UNBELIEVABLE,

IT’S  JUST  THAT  WHEN  YOUR  BORN  INTO  IT,  YOU  TEND  TO  LOOSE  SITE

OF  HOW  MIRACULOUS  IT  ACTUALLY  IS.

AND  IT’S  TRUE,  THAT  IF  YOU  COULD  VIEW  THE  WORLD AS  THROUGH  THE  EYES

OF  A  CHILD,  YOU  WOULD  BE  QUITE  AMAZED,  MOST  OF  THE  TIME.

JUST  IMAGINE  IF  WE  COULD  SEE  EVERYTHING,

 AS  THOUGH  IT  WAS  THE  FIRST  TIME  WE’VE  EVER  SEEN  IT.

*

TRY  TO  IMAGINE  WHAT  IT  WOULD  BE  LIKE  IF  YOU  WERE  TO

SEE  A  BIRD  FOR  THE  FIRST  TIME  OR  A  HUMAN  BEING  OR  ANYTHING

FOR  THAT  MATTER.

YOU  WOULDN’T  BELIEVE  YOUR  EYES.

BUT  AFTER  SEEING  THOUSANDS  OF  BIRDS  A  THOUSANDS  OF  TIMES,

 YOU  START  TO  GET  A  LITTLE  USED  TO  IT.

*

BUT  THE  THINGS  THAT  ARE  HAPPENING  IN  THIS  UNIVERSE

AND  ON  OUR  PLANET  ALONE,  ARE  SO  UNBELIEVABLE,  THAT  THE  HUMAN  MIND

CAN  HARDLY  COMPREHEND  THEM.

SO  MANY  THINGS  IN  LIFE  ARE  SO  UNEXPLAINABLE,

  THAT  WE  JUST  DON’T  KNOW  WHAT  TO  MAKE  OF  IT.

SO  IT’S  NO  WONDER  SO  MANY  PEOPLE  WILL  TURN  TO  GOD.

 EVEN  EINSTEIN  BELIEVED  IN  A  GOD  OF  SORTS,

THOUGH  HIS  IDEA  OF  GOD  MAY  HAVE  BEEN  PRETTY  UNORTHODOX,

*

  THE  UNIVERSE  IS  SUCH  A  CREATIVE  FORCE

AND  PROCESSES  SO  MUCH  POWER,

THAT  IT  REALLY  CAN  APPEAR  GOD  LIKE.

AND  THE  UNIVERSE  IS  SO  UNBELIEVABLY  CREATIVE  AND  MYSTERIOUS

THAT  IT  APPEARS  TO  US  THAT  NATURE  IS  CREATING  MIRACLES

ALL  THE  TIME.

*

AND  IF  YOU  LISTEN  TO  MOST  PEOPLES  REASONING  FOR  BELIEVING  IN  GOD  YOU’LL  FIND

THAT  THEY  ARE  USUALLY  IN  SUCH  AWW  OF  NATURE,  WHICH  THEY  SHOULD  BE,

THAT  THEY  JUST  CAN’T  BELIEVE  THAT  SOME  KIND  OF  GOD

DIDNT  CREATE  IT.

*

SO  IN  A  WAY  THE  UNIVERSE  AND  NATURE  ARE  ABLE  TO  PERFORM

WHAT  APPEARS  TO  BE  MIRACLES.

MINUS  THE  BIG  GUY,  OF COURSE.

SOMETIMES  WE  CALL  SOMETHING  A  MIRACLE,

BUT  REALLY  IT  COULD  BE  AN  EVENT  THAT  WE  CAN’T  YET  UNDERSTAND

OR  COMPREHEND  WITH  OUR  LEVEL  OF  UNDERSTANDING.

OR  IT  COULD  BE  SOMETHING  THAT  IS  BEYOND  UNDERSTANDING.

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BUT  AS  FAR  AS  NATURE  GOES,

IF  YOU  DON’T  BELIEVE  WE  WERE  PUT  HERE  BY  SOME  SORT  OF  GOD,

THEN  YOU  HAVE  TO  ACCEPT  THAT  WE  ARE  A  PRODUCT  OF  NATURE,

JUST  LIKE  THE  EARTH  AND  THE  TREES  AND  THE  ANIMALS.

*

AND  JUST  AS  THE  UNIVERSE  HAS  CREATED  THE  EARTH  AND  MAN,

SO  HAS  IT  ALSO  CREATED  OUR  ABILITY  TO  TO  THINK  AND  TO  CHOOSE.

THOSE  QUALITIES  MUST  HAVE  BEEN  CREATED  BY  NATURE.

*

TO  ME  IT  WOULD  SEEM

THAT  NATURE  HAS  EVOLVED  TO  A  POINT,  OR  HAS  HAD  THE  POWER  ALL  ALONG,

TO  CREATE  QUALITIES  LIKE  CONSCIOUSNESS  AND  THOUGHT  AND  POSSIBLY  FREE  WILL.

AND  BY  DOING  SO,  NATURE  HAS  GIVEN  ITSELF  THE  ABILITY

TO  CONSCIOUSLY  CHANGE  ITS  OWN  COURSE.

AND  BECAUSE  WE  ARE  NATURE,  WITH  THE  ABILITY

TO  CHANGE  THE  COURSE  OF  NATURE.

THAT  MAKES  EVERYTHING  WE  DO,

 A  NATURAL  EVENT  IN  NATURE.

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SO  IF  MAN  HAS  THE  ABILITY  TO  HAVE  CONSCIOUS  THOUGHT.

AND  NATURE  CREATED  MAN.

THEN  NATURE  CREATED  CONSCIOUS  THOUGHT.

I  MEAN  THE  ALTERNATIVE  IS  LIKE  ME  SAYING

THAT  I  CREATED  MY  OWN  EYEBALL.

AND  OF  COURSE  I DIDN’T,  NATURE  CREATED  THE  EYEBALL.

*

SO  IF  NATURE  HAS  THE  ABILITY  TO  CREATE  CONSCIOUSNESS  AND  THINKING  AND  IMAGINATION

 AND  THE  ABILITY  CREATE  AN  ORGANISM  THAT  CAN  BUILD  AN  AIRPLANE  OR

  START  A  WAR  OR  EXIBIT  QUALITIES  LIKE  STUPIDITY.

THEN  AREN’T  ALL  THESE  THINGS  JUST  THE  WORKINGS  OF  NATURE.

JUST  LIKE  AN  EARTH  QUAKE  OR  A  SNOW  STORM,

OR  ANY  OTHER  EVENT.

*

SO  IN  ONE  SENSE  WHAT  I’M  SAYING  IS  THAT  NATURE  HAS  MANY  QUALITIES,

 AND  ONE  OF  THOSE  QUALITIES  IS  THE  ABILITY  TO  BE  STUPID.

WELL…  YOU  MAY  BE  SAYING  THE  ONLY  STUPID  ONE  HERE  IS  THE

PERSON  WRITING  THIS  PHILOSOPHICAL  DRIBBLE,

AND  YOU  WOULDN’T  BE  COMPLETELY  WRONG.

BECAUSE  THATS  NOT  THE  POINT I’M  ARGUING.

I’M  JUST  SAYING  THAT  NATURE  HAS  CREATED  ME,  AS  WELL  AS  ALL  MY  ABILITIES.

SO  MAYBE  A  BETTER  WAY  TO  PUT  IT  IS  THAT

  NATURE  HAS  THE  ABILITY  TO  BE  STUPID,  THROUGH  ME.

THROUGH  ME  AND  WITH  ME  AND  BY  ME.

BUT  WHAT  I  THINK  IT’S  IMPORTANT  TO  REMEMBER  HERE  IS  THAT

    AT  MY  VERY  CORE,

I  AM  NATURE.

WE  ALL  ARE.

AND  WE’LL  NEVER  BE  MORE,

AND  WE’LL  NEVER  BE  LESS.

*

FOR  SOME  REASON  THE  AVERAGE  PERSON  FINDS  IT  HARD  TO  ATTRIBUTE

THINGS  LIKE,  THOUGHT,  IMAGINATION,  CONSCIOUSNESS  AND  REASONING  TO  NATURE.

WE  LIKE  TO  KEEP  NATURE  TO  THE  REAL  PHYSICAL  STUFF,  LIKE  ROCKS  AND  TREES

AND  BIRDS  AND  BEES.

BUT  THE  FACTS  SEEM  TO  BE  THAT  NATURE  CAN  PRODUCE  MUCH  MORE  THAT  JUST

THE  PHYSICAL.

IT  HAS  IMAGINATION.

*

NOW  MOST  PEOPLE  REALLY  DON’T  LIKE  TO  GIVE  NATURE

 PERSONAL  CREDIT  FOR  THE  QUALITY  OF  IMAGINATION.

WE  LIKE  TO  THINK

WE  CAME  UP  WITH  THAT  ONE.

BUT  THE  WAY  I  SEE  IT,  THAT  WOULD  BE  LIKE  SAYING,

A  TREE  CREATED  AN  APPLE,  WITHOUT  ACCEPTING  THE  FACT

THAT  THE  EARTH  CREATED  THE  TREE.

AND  THE  UNIVERSE  CREATED  THE  EARTH.

SO  IN  EFFECT,  THE  UNIVERSE  CREATED  THE  APPLE  TOO.

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AND  IN  THE  SAME  WAY,

THE  UNIVERSE  CREATED  THE  EARTH  AND  THE  EARTH  CREATED  PEOPLE

AND  PEOPLE  CREATED  THINKING.

SO  THE  UNIVERSE  CREATED  THINKING.

THE  INGREDIENTS  TO  CREATE  THINKING  WERE  PRESENT  IN  NATURE  FIRST

OTHERWISE  IT  COULD  NEVER  OF  BEEN  CREATED.

*

CHAPTER  5

*

” BY  US  OR  THROUGH  US “

*

EVERYTHING  THAT  HAPPENS  ON  THE  PLANET

OR  IN  THE  UNIVERSE  IS  CREDITED

TO  NATURE ….

WHETHER  ITS  THE  CREATION  OF  THE  SUN

OR  THE  EARTH  OR  A  TREE  OR  EVEN  A  HUMAN  BEING ….

BUT  AS  SOON  AS  OUR  FREE  WILL,  OUR  THOUGHTS,  AND  OUR  INVENTIONS

  COME  INTO  PLAY,

THEN  ALL  OF  A  SUDDEN  WE  WANT  TO  CLAIM  ALL  THE  CREDIT …

WE  HAVE  NO  PROBLEM  BELIEVING  THAT  THE  UNIVERSE  CREATED  OUR  SUN

OR  A  BLACK  HOLE  OR  THE  SAND  ON  THE  BEACH.

SO  WOULDN’T  YOU  SAY  THAT  NATURE  OR  THE  UNIVERSE  HAS  CREATED  THINKING,

AND  FREE  WILL.

I  JUST  CAN’T  UNDERSTAND  HOW  WE  THINK  WE  CAN  RISE  ABOVE  NATURE

WHEN  NATURE  IS  WHAT  WE  ARE.

*

AS  HUMANS  WE  HAVE  TREMENDOUS  EGOS,

WE  LOVE  TO  TAKE  CREDIT  FOR  THE  TALENTS  NATURE  HAS  BESTOWED  ON  US.

AND  I  GUESS,  ON  THE  FLIP  SIDE,  WE  MAY  CARRY  GUILT  FOR  THE  NEGATIVE  ONES.

*

 I  THINK  ONE  OF  THE  REASONS  FOR  THAT  IS  BECAUSE

 AS  SOON  AS  SOMETHING  INTANGIBLE  COMES  INTO  QUESTION,

LIKE  THOUGHT,  IMAGINATION  OR  EVEN  LOVE  AND  COMPASSION,

THEN  AT  THAT  POINT  WE  DECIDE  NATURE  IS  NO  LONGER  RESPONSIBLE.

WE  THINK  OF  NATURE  AS  VERY  SOLID  AND  MATERIAL,

BUT  TO  ME  THAT  DOESN’T  REALLY  MAKE  SENSE.

*

SO  MAYBE  THE  UNIVERSE  DOESN’T  THINK  IN  THE  WAY

THE  HUMAN  BRAIN  DOES.

AND  YOUR  PROBABLY  MORE  COMFORTABLE  ACCEPTING  THAT  NATURE  HAS

CREATED  AN  ORGANISM  THAT  CAN  THINK,  AND  HAS  FREE  WILL  AND  CAN  LOVE  AND  HATE.

BUT  NOT  VERY  COMFORTABLE  WITH  THE  IDEA  THAT  NATURE

 CAN  LOVE  AND  HATE  AND  CAN  ACTUALLY  THINK.

*

BUT  MY  POINT  IS  THIS,  IF  WE  ARE  NATURE  AND  NATURE  CREATED  US

AND  ONE HUNDRED  PERCENT  OF  OUR  PHYSICAL  BODY  IS  NATURAL,

THEN  WHAT  IS  THE  CONNECTION.

NOW  IF  YOU  BELIEVE  IN  GOD  THEN  YOU  CAN  JUST  SAY

GOD  HAS  GIVEN  US  THESE  SPECIAL  POWERS.

BUT  IF  YOU  DON’T,  THEN  YOU  HAVE  TO  LOOK  TO  NATURE.

*

CHAPTER  5

*

” LETS  BAKE  A  CAKE “

*

SO  TO  PUT  IT  ANOTHER  WAY,

IF  I  COULD  PLAY  THE  PIANO,

WOULD  YOU  GIVE  ALL  THE  CREDIT  TO  MY  FINGERS.

NO,  BECAUSE  MY  FINGERS  ARE  GUIDED  BY  MY  MIND.

I’M  NOT  SAYING  THE  UNIVERSE

 GIVES  MESSAGES  TO  HUMAN  BEINGS

 IN  EXACTLY  THE  SAME  WAY  THAT  THE  HUMAN  BRAIN

GIVES  MESSAGES  TO  THE  PIANO  PLAYERS  HANDS.

*

BUT  WHAT  I  AM  SAYING  IS  THAT  IF  NATURE  IS  OUR  TRUE  MOTHER

AND  OUR  CREATOR  AND  THEREFORE   THE  CREATOR  OF  THINKING  AND  CONSCIOUSNESS.

AND  IF  NATURE  IS  WHAT  WE  ARE  AT  OUR  VERY  CORE,

AND  NATURE  SUSTAINS  OUR  SURVIVAL  EVERY  MOMENT  OF  EVERY  DAY.

THEN  IS  IT  SO  HARD  TO  BELIEVE  THAT  NATURE

MAY  BE  ACTING  THROUGH  US  ON  EVERY  LEVEL  POSSIBLE,

INCLUDING  OUR  THINKING  AND  OUR  ACTIONS  AND  BEHAVIORS.

AFTER  ALL  NATURE  CREATING  IT  AND  SUSTAINING  IT.

*

SO  HERE’S  MY  POINT,

IF  YOU  WANT  TO  BAKE  A  CAKE,  YOU  CAN’T  JUST  PRAY  OVER  A  FUCKING  ROCK.

YOU  NEED  ALL  THE  NECESSARY  INGREDIENTS.

 YOU’LL  NEED  FLOUR  FROM  WHEAT,  EGGS  FROM  CHICKENS,

MILK  FROM  COWS  AND  SOME  HEAT.

BUT  ALL  THE  INGREDIENTS  HAD  TO  BE  THERE  FIRST

 IN  ORDER  TO  MAKE  THAT  CAKE.

*

AND  THE  SAME  IS  TRUE  OF  THOUGHT  AND  CHOICE  AND  FREE  WILL.

THE  INGREDIENTS  TO  CREATE  IMAGINATION,

AND  THINKING  AND  CONSCIOUSNESS  AND  FREE  WILL

OR  TO  INVENT  AN  AIRPLANE,  WERE  PRESENT  IN  NATURE  FIRST .

OR  YOU  COULD  SAY  THE  INGREDIENTS  WERE  PRESENT  IN  NATURE  TO  CREATE

A  BEING  WHO WAS  CAPABLE  OF  THOUGHT,  IMAGINATION  AND  FREE  WILL.

*

WE  MAY  BE  PERFORMING  THESE  AMAZING  BEHAVIORS,

BUT  THE  INGREDIENTS  TO  CREATE  THEM  CAME  FROM

THE  UNIVERSE  AND  THE  EARTH  AND  THE  SUN  THE  WATER  ETC, ETC.

I’M  JUST  SAYING,

LETS  GIVE  CREDIT  WHERE  CREDITS  DUE..

I  KNOW  WE  LIKE  TO  THINK  OF  OURSELVES  AS  SELF  MADE  MEN,

BUT  SOMETIMES  I  GET  THE  FEELING  THAT  US  HUMANS

BELIEVE  WE  HAVE  CREATED  OURSELVES.

*

I’M  SURE  MOST  OF  US  WILL  AGREE

 THAT  THE  UNIVERSE  IS  A  POWERFULLY  CREATIVE  FORCE.

AND  YOU  MAY  BELIEVE  THAT  THE  UNIVERSE  CREATED  INTELLIGENCE.

BUT  YOU  MAY  FIND  IT  HARD  TO  THINK  OF  THE  UNIVERSE  AS  AN  INTELLIGENT  ENTITY.

*

BUT  FOR  ME  MUST  HAVE  AN  INTELLIGENCE  THAT  WE  CAN’T  UNDERSTAND.

MAYBE  NOT  IN  THE  WAY  THAT

THE  HUMAN  MIND  IS  INTELLIGENT,

BUT  WHO  KNOWS,  MAYBE  IT’S  EVEN  MORE  INTELLIGENT

THAN  THE  HUMAN  MIND.

OR  MAYBE  IT  IS  ONE  IN  THE  SAME.

AFTER  ALL,  NATURE  CREATED  THE  HUMAN  MIND  IN  THE  FIRST  PLACE.

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CHAPTER  SIX

*

” NATURE  CREATED  STUPIDITY,

I’M  JUST  THE  MIDDLE  MAN “

*

SO  WHAT  I’M  SAYING,  IS  THAT  THERE  IS  A  VERY  OBVIOUS  CONNECTION

TO  ALL  OF  NATURE.

WE  ARE  ROOTED  IN  NATURE

THE  SAME  WAY  A  TREE  IS  ROOTED  IN  THE  EARTH.

 *

SO  IS  IT  SO  CRAZY  TO  VIEW  MANS  ACTIONS

AS  BEING  GUIDED  BY  AN  INTELLIGENT  UNIVERSE.

WELL…. GUIDED  MAY  NOT  BE  THE  BEST  WORD  EITHER.

BECAUSE  AS  I  SAID,  WE  ARE  100%  NATURE,

SO  MAYBE  THROUGH  US  AND  WITH  US  IS  A  MORE  ACCURATE

WAY  TO  DESCRIBE  OUR  ACTIONS.

DO  YOU  SEE  WHERE  I’M  GOING  WITH  THIS ?

*

I  KNOW  YOU  MAY  THINK,  THAT  IF  WE  ALL  WERE  BEING  GUIDED  BY  NATURE,

WOULDN’T  WE  ALL  BE  ON  THE  SAME  PAGE.

WOULDN’T  EVERY  ONE  OF  US  BE  WORKING  TOWARD

THE  COMMON  GOOD  FOR  NATURE  AND  FOR  MAN  ALIKE.

WELL,  YOU  CAN’T  REALLY  SAY  THAT  BECAUSE  WE  DON’T

REALLY  FULLY  UNDERSTAND   THE  NATURE  OF  THE  UNIVERSE

THAT  CREATED  US.

FOR  ALL WE  KNOW,  THE  NATURE  OF  THE  UNIVERSE  COULD  JUST  BE

AN  ENDLESS  ENDEAVOR  TO  CREATE  ANY  AND  EVERY  POSSIBLE  THING  IT  CAN.

*

I  KNOW  IT  SOUNDS  A  LITTLE  CRAZY,  TO  VIEW  THE  UNIVERSE

AS  A  GUIDING  POWERFUL,  INTELLIGENT  FORCE

THAT’S  INVOLVED  IN  OUR  EVERY  MOVE.

 BUT  IF  YOU  REALLY  TAKE  THE  TIME

TO  LOOK  AT  THE  WORLD  WE  LIVE  IN,  AND  THINK  ABOUT

THE  FACT  THAT  AS  YOUR  READING  THESE  WORDS,

  YOU’RE  HURLING  THROUGH  SPACE

  ON A  GIANT  SPHERE

THAT’S  FILLED  WITH  A  SOLID  CORE  OF  NICKEL  AND  IRON ORE,

THAT’S  AS  HOT  AS  THE  SURFACE  OF  THE   SUN.

AND  ALL  THE  TIME  SPINNING  AROUND  AT  ABOUT

THOUSAND  MILES  PER  HOUR,  IN  RELATION  TO  THAT  GIANT  STAR

WE  CALL  THE  SUN,  THAT  WE’RE  REVOLVING  AROUND,

AND  AT  THE  SAME  TIME,  OUR  ENTIRE  GALAXY  FLIES  THROUGH  SPACE

AT  AROUND  1.3  MILLION  MILES  PER  HOUR.

AND  IF  YOU  REALLY  WANT  TO  TWIST  YOUR  BRAIN,

THINK  ABOUT  HOW  WE  NOW  BELIEVE  THAT  THE  EARTH

IS  MOVING  AROUND  THE  SUN  BECAUSE  THE  SUN  IS  BENDING

THE  SPACE  AND  THE  EARTH  IS  JUST  TRAVELING  ALONG  THE  LINE  OF  BENDING  SPACE.

WELL ….. THAT’S  SOME  CRAZY  SHIT  TOO.

AND  THEN  ON  TOP  OF  THAT

FOR  SOME  REASON  PEOPLE  STARTED  GROWING  ON  THAT

SPHERE,  WE  CALL   EARTH,  ALONG  WITH  A  LOT OF  OTHER

UNUSUAL  CHARACTERS.

NO  WONDER  MORE  THAN  HALF  THE  PEOPLE

ON  THE  PLANET  BELIEVE  IN  GOD.

BECAUSE  THERE  IS  SOME  CRAZY  SHIT  GOING  ON.

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CHAPTER  7

*

” THINK  ABOUT  IT “

*

SEE,  I  THINK  THE  REAL  PROBLEM  IS  THAT  WE  DON’T  THINK  ABOUT  IT.

NOT  THAT  I  CAN  BLAME  ANYONE.

THERE’S  MUCH  MORE  IMPORTANT  MATTERS  TO  DEAL  WITH.

LIKE  MAKING  A  LIVING,  FINDING  LOVE  AND  HAVING  A  FAMILY.

BUT  MAYBE  YOU  FOUND  MOST  OF  THOSE  THINGS,

OR  AT  LEAST  A  FEW  OF  THOSE  THINGS.

OR  MAYBE  YOU  FOUND  THEM  ALL  AND  THEN  LOST  THEM.

EITHER  WAY,  IT  MIGHT  BE  WORTH  YOUR  WHILE  TO  THINK  ABOUT  THE  REALITY

OF  THE  WORLD  WE  LIVE  IN.

*

SO  THE  NEXT  TIME  YOUR  LYING  IN  BED IN  THE  DARK

TRY  TO  REALIZE  THAT  THE  HOUSE  THAT  YOUR  IN,

 IS  SPINNING  ABOUT  A  THOUSAND  MILES  PER  HOUR  IN  AN  EASTERLY  DIRECTION.

BUT  REALLY  THINK  ABOUT,  BECAUSE  IT’S  ACTUALLY  HAPPENING.

AND  THEN  TRY  TO  REALIZE  HOW  BIG  THE  EARTH  IS,

AND  THE  FACT  THAT  FOR  YOUR  HOUSE  TO  COME  FULL  CIRCLE,

TO  WHERE  IT  IS  RIGHT  NOW

IT  WILL  TAKE  ABOUT  24  HOURS.

*

BUT  AT  THE  SAME  TIME  THINK  ABOUT  THE  FACT  THAT  THE  SPINNING  OF  EARTH

IS  ONLY   RELATIVE  TO  THE  SUN.

AND  ACTUALLY  THE  GALAXY  IS  ALSO  MOVING  AT  ABOUT  1.3  MILLION

MILES  PER  HOUR.

AND  NOW,  IN  COMPARISON,  THE  EARTH  ISN’T  VERY  BIG  AT  ALL.

SO  THAT  IF  YOUR  STANDING  ON  THE  SHORE  OF  A  BEACH,  YOU  MAY  ONLY

SEE  A  LITTLE  OVER  THREE  MILES  BEFORE  THE  EARTH  STARTS  TO  CURVE

DOWN  OUT  OF  SITE.

THEN  TRY  TO  REALIZE  HOW  BIG  THE  UNIVERSE  IS.

IF  YOU  TURNED  ON  A  FLASH  LIGHT  AND  SHINED  IT  TOWARD  YOUR  CEILING,

NOTICE  HOW  FAST  THAT  LIGHT  HITS  CEILING.

IT’S  ACTUALLY  TRAVEL  ABOUT  186  THOUSAND  MILES  PER  SECOND.

THEN  IMAGINE  THERE  WAS  NO  CEILING  AND  NO  ROOF  ON  YOUR  HOUSE.

AND  THAT  LIGHT  SHINED  UP  THROUGH  THE  SKY.

AND  YOU  LIED  THERE  FOR  ONE  WHOLE  YEAR

SHINING  THAT  LIGHT  THROUGH  THE  UNIVERSE,  AND  THE  FRONT  OF  THAT

BEAM  OF  LIGHT  WAS  TRAVELING  AT  ABOUT  186  THOUSAND  MILES  PER  HOUR

THINK  ABOUT  FAR  THAT  BEAM  OF  LIGHT  WOULD  GO  IF  NOTHING  WERE  IN  ITS  WAY.

AND  THINK  ABOUT  HOW  MUCH  DISTANCE  IT  WOULD  HAVE  GONE  FROM  YOUR  HOUSE.

THEN  IMAGINE  IF  YOU  LIED  IN  YOUR  BED  SHINING  THAT  FLASH  LIGHT  FOR  BILLIONS  OF  YEARS.

WELL…. YOU  STILL  MAY  NOT  REACH  THE  END  OF  THE  UNIVERSE.

OR  YOU  MAY  EVEN  HIT  ANOTHER  ONE.

EITHER  WAY,  THAT’S  STILL  PRETTY  FUCKING  BIG.

*

BUT  LETS  COME  BACK  TO  OUR  LITTLE  EARTH  AGAIN.

WE  DON’T  KNOW  WHATS  GOING  ON  IN  MOST  OF  THE  UNIVERSE,

IT’S  STILL  OUT  OF  OUR  REACH.

BUT  ON  THIS  PLANET  WE  CALL  EARTH,

PEOPLE  STARTED  GROWING.

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  WAIT  A  MINUTE !!!  YOUR  PROBABLY  THINKING  TO  YOURSELF,

I  AIN’T  NO  FUCKING  TREE,  I  DIDN’T  JUST  GROW  OUT  OF  THE  GROUND.

WELL ………. ACTUALLY  YOU  DID,  IT  JUST  TOOK  A  WHILE.

YES  I  KNOW  PEOPLE  DON’T  LIKE  TO  HEAR  IT  PUT  THAT  WAY,  TUFF  SHIT,

PUT  IT  ANY  WAY  YOU  WANT.

BECAUSE  THATS  WHAT  HAPPENED.

THE  UNIVERSE  AND  THE  EARTH  CREATED  PEOPLE.

YES… THE  EARTH  MADE  PEOPLE,  LIKE  IT  OR  NOT.

BECAUSE  IF  YOUR  NOT  BUYING  THE  WHOLE  RELIGIOUS  THING,

AND  YOU  LOOK  AT  ALL  THE  SCIENTIFIC  EVIDENCE,

THEN  THERE’S  NO  OTHER  ALTERNATIVE.

YOU’LL  HAVE  TO  ACCEPT,  TO  SOME  DEGREE

WHAT  SCIENCE  HAS  SHOWN  US  ALL  ALONG,

AND  THAT  IS  THAT  SOME  HOW,  THIS  EARTH

WITH  ITS  DIRT  AND  WATER,  AIR  AND  SUN,

MANAGED  TO  GROW

TREES,  BIRDS,  FISH,  ANIMALS,  AND  EVEN  HUMANS

 ALONG  WITH  A  WHOLE  LOT  OF  OTHER  COOL  SHIT.

EVEN  IF  SOME  ALIEN  FORCE  VISITED  AND  SPRINKLED  THIER  ALIEN

SPERM  INTO  OUR  SOIL,  WE  STILL  GREW  HERE.

TALK  ABOUT  A  GARDEN  OF  EDEN,  IT’S  RIGHT  UNDER  OUR  FEET.

*

CHAPTER  EIGHT

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“EVEN  AN  ATHEIST  HAS  A  SOUL”

LOVE,  COMPASSION  AND  FORGIVENESS

*

I  THINK  ONE  OF  THE  BIGGEST  PROBLEMS  FOR  THE  BUDDING  ATHEIST

OR  MAYBE  EVEN  A  SEASONED  ONE,

IS  TO  ACCEPT  THAT  EMOTIONS  LIKE  LOVE,  COMPASSION  AND  FORGIVENESS

ARE  A  CREATION  OF  THE  NATURAL  WORLD,

WHICH  WE  ALL  HAPPEN  TO  POSESS.

THOSE  AREN’T  QUALITIES  RESERVED  ONLY  FOR  THE  FAITHFUL.

*

SOMETIMES  WE  TEND  TO  VIEW  THE  UNIVERSE  AND  NATURE  AS  AN  IRRELEVANT  FORCE.

A  FORCE  INCAPABLE  OF  AN  ACT  OF  LOVE.

WE  CAN  ACCEPT  AN  ACT  OF  VIOLENCE  FROM  NATURE.

LIKE  A  FLOOD  OR  A  TORNADO.

BUT  WHEN  IT  COMES  TO  THINGS  LIKE  LOVE  OR  FORGIVENESS,

WE  TEND  TO  THINK  IT  CAN  ONLY  COME  FROM  GOD  OR  MAN.

*

NOW  AT  THIS  POINT  YOU  MAY  BE  THINKING,  WAIT  A  MINUTE

THIS  GUY’S  TRYING  TO  TURN  NATURE  INTO  A  GOD.

NOT  AT  ALL,  BUT  IT’S  OBVIOUS  THAT  NATURE  DOES  APPEAR  GOD  LIKE,

BUT  WITH  ONE  VERY  BIG  DIFFERENCE,  NO  GOD.

*

SO  WITH  THAT  IN  MIND  TRY  TO  ENTERTAIN  THE  POSSIBILITY

THAT  THE  UNIVERSE  IS  ONE  TREMENDOUS  ORGANISM  OR  FORCE.

OR  YOU  CAN  LOOK  AT  IT  AS  SOMETHING  WITH  A  LOT  OF  INGREDIENTS.

THE  INGREDIENTS  AN  THE  POWER  TO  FIND  A  WAY  TO  CREATE  THOUGHT,

 THAT  CAN  CREATE  A  BEING  THAT  CAN  MAKE  CHOICES,

THAT  HAS  BECOME  CONSCIOUS  OF  ITSELF,

THAT  CAN  CREATE  THINGS  LIKE  LOVE  AND  COMPASSION.

A  UNIVERSE  THAT  HAS  SEEMINGLY

  CREATED  THE  POWER  TO  CONSCIOUSLY

  CHANGE  ITS  OWN  DESTINY.

*

I  THINK  IT’S  DIFFICULT  FOR  SOME  ATHEISTS  TO  ACCEPT  THAT  THINGS

LIKE  CONSCIOUSNESS  AND  LOVE  AND  FORGIVENESS  ARE  ACTUALLY  CREATIONS  OF  NATURE,

AS  WELL  AS  VIOLENCE  AND  FEAR  AND  ANGER.

AND  THAT  “THINKING”  ISN’T  MAN  MADE  AT  ALL,

IT  WAS  CREATED  BY  NATURE.

*

SO  WITH  THAT  IN  MIND,

ASK  YOURSELF,   WHAT  IS  A  HUMAN  BEING.

ARE  WE  JUST  THE  FINGERS  OF  THE  PIANO  PLAYER,

PLAYING  NATURES  TUNE.

 OR  ARE  WE  THE  VIRTUAL  EYES  OF  THE  UNIVERSE ?

OR  HAVE  WE  TRUELY  SEPARATED  FROM  NATURE  COMPLETELY ?

AND  IS  THAT  EVEN  POSSIBLE ?

WHAT  DO  YOU  THINK ?

*

IF  NATURE  HAS  CREATED  THINGS  LIKE

FREE  WILL,  CONSCIOUSNESS  AND  INTELLIGENCE

AND  HAS  GIVEN  ITSELF  THIS  FREEDOM,  THROUGH  US,

THEN  WHO  IS  REALLY  RUNNING  THE  SHOW ?

*

IF  NATURE  CREATED  OUR  BRAIN  THAT  IS  DOING  THE  THINKING.

AND  NATURE   SUSTAINS  THAT  BRAIN  ON  A  DAILY  BASIS.

FOOD,  WATER,  AIR  AND  SUN  LIGHT  ALL  PROVIDED  BY  NATURE.

AND  EVERY  SINGLE  CELL  OF  WHAT  WE  ARE   IS  CREATED  AND  SUSTAINED  BY  NATURE,

THEN  HOW  CAN  WE  BE  SO  SURE  THAT  WE  ARE  REALLY  ACTING

INDEPENDENTLY  OF  NATURE  AND  THE  UNIVERSE.

KEEPING  IN  MIND  THAT

ON  A  PHYSICAL  LEVEL  WE  ARE  ONE  HUNDRED  PERCENT  DEPENDENT

ON  OUR  NATURAL  ENVIRONMENT.

*

SOMETIMES  WE  TEND  TO  THINK  OF  NATURE  AS  SECONDARY  TO  US,

AS  IF  IT  JUST  HANDED  THE  BATTON  OF  EXISTENCE  OFF  TO  US

AND  NOW  WE  CAN  RUN  WITH  IT,  ANY  WAY  WE  WANT.

*

WELL …….. IN  ONE  SENCE  IT  MAY  SEEM  THAT  WAY.

BUT  IF  NATURE  AND  THE  UNIVERSE  HAS  CREATED  THIS  POWER  OF  FREE  WILL.

AND  WE  ARE  ONE  HUNDRED  PERCENT  NATURE.

THEN  TO  ME  IT  MAKES  MORE  SENCE  THAT  NATURE

IS  EXERCISING  FREE  WILL  THROUGH  US.

*

OR  MAYBE  A  BETTER  WAY  TO  LOOK  AT  IT

MIGHT  BE  THAT  NATURE  CREATES   THROUGH  US  AND  WITH  US.

BUT  MY  POINT  IS,   JUST  AS  A  FLOWER

IS  CREATED  BY  THE  BUSH

THAT  WAS  CREATED  BY  THE  EARTH

THAT  WAS  CREATED  BY  THE  UNIVERSE ….

SO  IS  OUR  ABILITY   THINK,

CREATED  BY  THE  EARTH

WHICH  WAS  ALSO  CREATED  BY  THE  UNIVERSE ….

*

THE  POINT  BEING,  WE  HAVEN’T  SEPARATED  FROM  NATURE

IN  ANY  WAY  AT  ALL …..

BECAUSE  WE  CAN’T,  IT’S  PHYSICALLY  IMPOSSIBLE.

WE’VE  ONLY  SEPARATED  IN  OUR  MINDS.

*

 IF  WE  ARE  NATURE

AND  WE  WERE  CREATED  BY  NATURE

THEN  WOULD  IT  MAKE  MORE  SENSE

 THAT  NATURE  IS  REALLY  EXERCISING  FREE  WILL  THROUGH  US

RATHER  THAN  JUST  BY  US …

OR  MAYBE   THROUGH  US  AND   BY  US ……

OR  THROUGH  US  AND  WITH  US.

I  KNOW  THROUGH  US  AND  BY  US

ISN’T  A  VERY  SCIENTIFIC  EXPLANATION,

BUT  I’M  JUST  TRYING  TO  SHOW  THE  CONNECTION  HERE.

*

AND  I’M  NOT  PRESUMING  TO  KNOW  WHAT  WAS  IN  THE  BIG BANG,

THAT  HAD  THE  ABILITY  TO  CREATE  THINGS  LIKE  HUMAN  BEINGS  AND  FREE  WILL.

I’M  JUST  TRYING  TO  SHOW  THE  CONNECTION.

AND  THAT’S  WHAT  SCIENCE  IS  SHOWING  US  TOO.

UNLESS  I’M  MISSING  SOMETHING  HERE.

*

TRY  TO  REALIZE

 IF  EVERYTHING  IN  THE  UNIVERSE  DISAPPEARED  EXCEPT  US,

 WE  WOULD  BE  HISTORY  IN  A  FLASH.

IF  OUR  SOLAR  SYSTEM

GETS  A  LITTLE  ALTERED  WE  COULD  BE  GONE  IN  A  MOMENT.

*

SO  FOR  ME  IT’S  HARD  TO  DENY  THE  FACT  THAT  NATURE

HAS  A  VERY  POWERFUL  PART  IN  EVERY  ACTION

WE  CAN  POSSIBLY  MAKE.

BECAUSE  WITHOUT  THE  NATURE  OF  THE  EARTH  AND  THE  UNIVERSE

WE  CANNOT  EXIST  AT  ALL.

*

I’M  NOT  REALLY  SAYING  THAT  NATURE  IS  MAKING  THOSE  DECISIONS  FOR  US,

LIKE  SOME  KIND  OF  MYSTERIOUS  FORCE.

BUT  IF  IT’S  A  FACT  THAT  WE  ARE  NATURE,  ON  EVERY  LEVEL.

AND  NATURE  SUPPORTS  AND  SUPPLIES  US  WITH  ALL  OUR  NEEDS

 ON  EVERY  LEVEL  POSSIBLE.

THEN  WHAT  DOES  THAT  TELL  US ?

OR  DO  YOU  THINK  THAT  LITTLE  FACT  IS  IRRELEVANT ?

*

WOULD  YOU  SAY  THAT  AT  THE  VERY  LEAST,  NATURE  IS  EFFECTING  US  AND  OUR  CHOICES,

IN  THE  SAME  WAY  THAT  THE  UNIVERSE  EFFECTS  OUR  GALAXY

AND  THE  GALAXY  EFFECTS  OUR  SOLAR  SYSTEM

AND  THE  SOLAR  SYSTEM  EFFECTS  OUR  PLANET

AND  THE  PLANET  EFFECTS  A  TREE

AND  THE  TREE  EFFECTS  ITS  FRUIT.

BECAUSE  THEY’RE  ALL  VERY  MUCH  CONNECTED  AND  INTERDEPENDENT  FORCES

A  METEOR  FROM  A  FAR  AWAY  GALAXY  CAN  CHANGE  THE  FUTURE  OF  MAN  FOR  EVER.

*

SO  FOR  INSTANCE,

THE  WIND  DOESN’T  CHOOSE  THE  DIRECTION

IT  WANTS  TO  BLOW  IN.

THERE’S   TRILLIONS  OF  FACTORS

THAT  MAY  EFFECT  WHICH  WAY  THE  WIND  WILL  BLOW.

SO  MANY  FACTORS  OF  CAUSE  AND  EFFECTS ALL  HAPPENING  SIMULTANEOUSLY,

THAT  IT  MAKES  IT  IMPOSSIBLE  TO  REALLY  PREDICT  THE  WEATHER  IN  ADVANCE

*

SO  ISN’T  IT  POSSIBLE  THAT  THESE  SAME  FACTORS

MAY  DETERMINE  THE  WAY  WE  THINK

AND  THE  CHOICES

AND  DECISIONS

WE  MAKE.

AND  THAT  OUR  FREEDOM  OF  CHOICE

IS  IN  SOME  WAYS,  IS  ACTUALLY  AN  ILLUSION,

AND  THAT  THE  TRILLIONS  OF  FACTORS  IN  NATURE

THAT  EFFECT  THE  WIND,

ALSO   EFFECTS  OUR  EVERY  THOUGHT  AND  EVERY  CHOICE  WE  MAKE  AND  EVER  WILL  MAKE.

I  DON’T  KNOW…. I’M  JUST  ASKING

*

BUT  ISN’T  POSSIBLE  WE’RE  MORE  LIKE  THE  PIECES

ON  A  CHESS  BOARD ….

BEING  GUIDED  BY  A  GREATER  FORCE

OR  BY  A  TRILLION  DIFFERENT  FACTORS

JUST  LIKE  THE  WIND …

*

OR  DOES  FREE  WILL  ERASE  ALL  OF  THAT?

OR  IS  IT  HALF  TRUE OR  SLIGHTLY  TRUE. ?

I  KNOW  MOST  PEOPLE  BELIEVE  THAT  BECAUSE  WE  HAVE  FREE  WILL

AND  THE  POWER  TO  MAKE  PERSONAL  CHOICES.

THAT  IT  GIVES  US  THE  POWER  TO  ACT  CONTRARY  TO  NATURE.

BUT  IF  NATURE  CREATED  FREE  WILL,

AND  NATURE  CREATED  US,

AND  WE  ARE  NATURE,

THEN  IS  THAT  POSSIBLE ?

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SO  I  GUESS  THE  WAY  I  SEE IT  IS  THAT

 NATURE  HAS  GIVEN  US  THE  POWER  TO  ACT  AGAINST  NATURE

OR  TO  BEHAVE  UNNATURALLY.

OR  TO  PUT  IT  ANOTHER  WAY,  NATURE  HAS  GIVEN  ITSELF  THE  POWER

TO  ACT  AGAINST  ITSELF.

OR  DOES  IT  JUST  SEEM  TO  US  THAT  THESE  ARE  ACTS  AGAINST  NATURE ?

BUT  THIS  IS  WHERE  IT  MAY  GET A  LITTLE  TRICKY.

BECAUSE  HUMANS  HAVE  DECIDED  WHAT’S  UN-NATURAL,

AND  YET CERTAIN  THINGS  HAPPEN  IN  NATURE  THAT  SEEM  UN-NATURAL

OR  DESTRUCTIVE  TO  NATURE.

AND  HUMANS  STILL  SEEM  TO  ACT  AGAINST  NATURE.

AND  AT  THE  MOMENT,  IT  SEEMS  UNPREVENTABLE.

SO  THEN  WHAT  DOES  THAT  TELL  US ?

IS  NATURE  ALLOWING  THIS ?

ARE  WE  ALLOWING  THIS ?

IS  IT  THE  SAME  THING ?

 *

SOME  OF  THE  LAWS  OF  NATURE

  LIKE  THE  DRIVE  TO  SURVIVE  AND  REPRODUCE  …..

TO  LIVE  AND  TO  DIE ….

AND  TO  BE  SUBJECT  TO  CONSTANT  CHANGE

ARE  REALLY  UNIVERSAL  QUALITIES  OF  NATURE ….

*

SO  IF  THESE  QUALITIES  OF  NATURE

 ARE  INGRAINED  IN  US  BY  NATURE

AND  WE  ARE  100%  NATURE

THEN  IS  IT  REALLY  POSSIBLE  TO  EVER

  “NOT”  ACT  IN  ACCORDANCE  WITH  NATURE ….

*

SO  ARE  WE  MAKING  DECISIONS

OR  IS  NATURE  REALLY  MAKING

 WHAT  APPEARS  TO  BE  OUR  DECISIONS.

OR  IS  IT  THE  SAME  THING ?

IS  IT  POSSIBLE  THAT  EVERYONE

WITHOUT  EXCEPTION

IS  REALLY  BEHAVING  IN  ACCORDANCE  WITH  NATURE ?

*

SO  IS  NATURE  SOME  KIND  UNIMAGINABLE  FORCE

THAT  IS  EXPERIMENTING  WITH  ITSELF,

TRYING  ANYTHING  AND  EVERYTHING  POSSIBLE

JUST  TRYING  TO  MAKE  ANOTHER  EVOLUTIONARY  LEAP.

IS  IT  SOME  KIND  OF  INDESTRUCTIBLE  FOR  THAT  JUST  CREATES  AND  CREATES

AND  IF  IT  FAILS,  IT  JUST  CREATES  AGAIN.

WHETHER  IT’S  THE  DINOSAURS  OR  EVEN  THE  HUMAN  RACE.

WELL …. I  GUESS  ITS  POSSIBLE.

*

BUT  MY  POINT  IS,

CAN  WE  REALLY  BEHAVE  CONTRARY

  TO  NATURE  IN  ANY  WAY.

IF  ALL  WE  ARE  IS  NATURE

COULD  THAT  EVEN  BE  POSSIBLE.

IF  WE  CAN  THEN  I  CAN  ONLY  CONCLUDE

THAT  NATURE  IS  THE  FORCE  BEHIND  IT,  THAT  GAVE  ITSELF  THE  POWER

TO  ACT  CONTRARY  TO  ITSELF.

OR  AT  VERY  LEAST  GAVE  US  THE  POWER,

BUT  ISN’T  THAT  THE  SAME  THING

IF  WE  ARE  OF  NATURE.

*

LET’S  BACK  UP  A  LITTLE.

IT’S  NO  MYSTERY

THAT  SOMEWHERE  ALONG  THE  LINE

 WE  STARTED  TO  BELIEVE

  WE  WERE  SOME  HOW  ABOVE  NATURE …

*

WE  DECIDED  WE  WERE  DIFFERENT

FROM  ALL  THE  OTHER  THINGS  IN  THE  UNIVERSE …

SEPARATE  AND  SPECIAL ….

*

PEOPLE  WILL  NORMALLY  SAY

WE  LIVE  IN  AN  ENVIRONMENT.

BUT  EVERYTHING  REALLY  LIVES  IN,

AND  IS  PART  OF  THE  ENVIRONMENT.

*

  IT’S  TRUE  WE  MAY  BE  MORE  AWARE

OF  OURSELVES  AND  OUR  SURROUNDINGS  THAN  MOST  ANIMALS.

WE  REMEMBER  THE  PAST,  DREAM  ABOUT  THE  FUTURE,

 AND  HAVE  OPINIONS  AND  BELIEFS  AND  WE  CAN  CREATE  AND  INVENT.

*

BUT  IN  NO  WAY  DOES  THAT  ME  WE  ARE  INSEPARABLE  FROM  OUR  ENVIRONMENT

AND  NATURE …..

*

THE  LINES  BETWEEN  US  AND  NATURE

ARE  MUCH  BLURRIER  THAN  WE  CARE  TO  ADMIT.

ACTUALLY  THERE  IS  NO  LINE.

WE  ARE  ONE  HUNDRED  PERCENT  DEPENDENT.

WHETHER  IT’S  THE  AIR  FOOD  WATER  THE  SUN

OR  THE  GRAVITY,  I  CAN  GO  ON  AND  ON.

BECAUSE  IF  YOU  TAKE  EVEN  ONE  OF  THINGS  AWAY  WE’RE  HISTORY

PRETTY  QUICK.

SURE  WE  CAN  SURVIVE  IN  SPACE  FOR  A  TIME,  IF  WE  CREATE  A  WAY

TO  BRING  OUR  ENVIRONMENT  WITH  US.

OR  IF  WE  FIND  A  SUITABLE  ENVIRONMENT ELSEWHERE.

BUT  WE  STILL NEED  IT.

WE’RE  DEPENDENT  AND  WE’RE  CONNECTED

BECAUSE  IT’S  WHAT  CREATED  US.

*

RELIGION  AND  SOMETIMES  EVEN  SCIENCE,

 GIVE  US  THE  IMPRESSION  THAT  WE

   ARE  SEPARATE  FROM  NATURE  AND  OUR  ENVIRONMENT ….

*

 OUR  BODIES  ARE  SOMETHING  LIKE  SIXTY  PERCENT  WATER

AND  THE  REST  CONSISTS  OF  OTHER  THINGS

THE  BODY  GETS  FROM  OUR  ENVIRONMENT …

OUR  WHOLE  EXISTENCE  IS  TOTALLY  DEPENDENT

ON  OUR  ENVIRONMENT  AND  NATURE …

*

WE  MAY  HAVE  A  GENETIC  CODE  THAT  WE  THINK

IS  OURS  AND  IS  UNIQUE

BUT  DON’T  OUR  GENES  EXIST  BECAUSE

OUR  ENVIRONMENT  CREATED  IT

AND  MAINTAINS  IT  ON  A  REGULAR  BASIS …..

*

PHYSICALLY  WE  ARE  ONE  HUNDRED  PERCENT  NATURE …..

WE’VE  EVOLVED  ALONG  WITH  NATURE …

EVERYTHING  HAS,  ISN’T  THAT  WHAT  SCIENCE

HAS  SHOWN  US  ALL  ALONG….

*

WE  DIDN’T  JUST  SPROUT  UP  ALONG  WITH  THE  MONKEYS …..

EVERYTHING  HAS  EVOLVED

 ALONG  AND  WITH  EVERYTHING  ELSE

NATURE  IS  EVOLVING  AND  CHANGING  ALL  THE  TIME.

*

WE  MAY  NOT  PERSONALLY   AGREE

 WITH  THE  WAY  THINGS  ARE  EVOLVING  ON  OUR  PLANET

AND  I’M  NOT  SAYING  WE  SHOULD …..

WHAT  I’M  SAYING  IS  THAT  OUR  BEHAVIOR

IS  MORE  LIKE  THE  WEATHER

WHICH  IS  GUIDED  BY  NATURE ……

*

WE  ARE  COMPLETELY  TIED  INTO

 AND  CONNECTED  TO  OUR  ENVIRONMENT  AND  NATURE …

WE  CAN’T  STAND  ALONE  ANY  MORE  THAN  A  LEAF

COULD  GROW  OUT  OF  THIN  AIR ….

*

TRY  TO  IMAGINE  FOR  A  MOMENT

HOW  RIDICULOUS  IT  WOULD  BE  TO  SEE  A  LEAF

THAT’S  NOT  ATTACHED  TO  A  TREE,

JUST  GROWING  OUT  OF  THIN  AIR,  AND  YET

MOST  OF  US  STILL  SEEM  TO  VIEW  OURSELVES

EXACTLY  LIKE  THAT …

AS  THOUGH  WE  WERE  COMPLETELY  DETACHED  FROM  NATURE ….

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I  THINK  AS  FAR  AS  OUR  CONNECTION  TO  NATURE  GOES,

WE  ARE  NO  DIFFERENT  FROM  A  LEAF,

WHICH  IS  DEPENDENT  ON  THE  BRANCH

WHICH  IS  PART  OF  THE  TREE  THAT  DEPENDS  ON  THE  EARTH

THAT  DEPENDS  ON  THE  SUN  THAT  DEPENDS  ON  NATURE

  WHICH  IS  PART  OF  THE  UNIVERSE …… SHEWWWWW

I  KNOW  THAT’S   MOUTH  FULL.

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SO  MOST  PEOPLE  BELIEVE  WE  HAVE  BECOME  AWARE  OF  NATURE ….

BUT  YOU  COULD  ALSO  SAY

THAT  NATURE  HAS  REALLY  BECOME  AWARE  OF  ITSELF.

OR  MAYBE  THAT  SOUNDS  TOO  NEW  AGE-IAN  TO  YOU,

AND  YOU  PREFER  SAYING  NATURE  HAS  BECOME  AWARE  OF  NATURE,  THROUGH  US.

THAT  MAY  SEEM  LIKE  A  WILD  STATEMENT.

BUT  NOT  IF  YOU  BELIEVE  THE  FACT  THAT

 WE  ARE  NATURE

AND  WE  CAN  NEVER  BE  MORE,  OR  LESS,  THAN  NATURE.

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BUT   THE  WAY  I  SEE  IT,

IS  THAT  NATURE  IS  RUNNING  THIS  SHOW  WITH  US,

NOT  JUST  BY  US !

BECAUSE  WE  CAN’T  SEPARATE  FROM  NATURE.

IT’S  WHAT  WE  ARE  ON  EVERY  LEVEL.

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AND  WHEN  WE  THINK  THAT  SOMEONE

IS  ACTING  AGAINST  THE  LAWS  OF  NATURE

OR  THE  BETTERMENT  OF  NATURE,

WHAT  WE  ARE  REALLY  SEEING

IS  NATURE  IN  ACTION.

IT  MAY  APPEAR  WRONG  TO  US

AND  IT  VERY  WELL  MIGHT  BE.

BECAUSE  MAYBE  NATURE  CAN  BE  WRONG,

AT  LEAST  IT  SURE  SEEMS  THAT  WAY  SOMETIMES.

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I  KNOW  I’M  GOING  OUT  ON  A  LIMB  BUT  MAYBE

NATURE  IS  JUST  DOING  WHAT  NATURE  DOES.

EXPANDING  IN  ANY  POSSIBLE  DIRECTION  OR  AT  LEAST  TRYING  ALL  THE  POSSIBILITIES.

AND  AS  FAR  AS  I  CAN  SEE

HUMANS  ARE  DOING  THE  SAME  THING.

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  SOMETIMES  THE  NATURE  OF  MAN  MAY  APPEAR  NO  DIFFERENT

 FROM  THE  DANDELION  ON  THE  FRONT  LAWN.

THEY  TRY  TO  TAKE  OVER  THE  LAWN,

WHILE  THE  GRASS  TRIES TO  DO  THE  SAME  THING.

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IT  APPEARS  THAT  NATURE  ON  OUR  PLANET  IS  AN  ABUNDANCE  OF  ENTITIES

SOMETIMES  COMPETING  SOMETIMES  WORKING  TOGETHER

AND  SOMETIMES  DESTROYING  EACH OTHER…

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AND  AS  HUMAN  BEINGS  WE  SEEM  TO  DO  THE  SAME  THING,

MAYBE  WE  BECAUSE  WE  ARE  NATURE.

*

OUR  CONFLICT  OR  WHAT  APPEARS  TO  LOOK  LIKE  CONFLICT

  MAY  JUST  BE  PART  OF  NATURE  AND  PART  OF  THE  UNIVERSE

AND  PART  OF  US ….

AND  MAYBE  A  NECESSARY  PART

*

SO  MAYBE  WE  ARE  IN  CONFLICT  WITH  EACH  OTHER …

BECAUSE  THAT  IS  THE  NATURE  OF  NATURE

AND  THEREFOR  THE  NATURE  OF  HUMAN  BEINGS …..

*

MAYBE   OUR  CONFLICTS  ARE  THE  FORCE  OF  NATURE ….

NATURE  BEING  NATURAL …

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NOW  THERE  ARE  SOME  PEOPLE  WHO  BELIEVE

THAT  THE  COURSE  OF  NATURE  IS  CHANGING.

AND  THERE  WILL  BE  ANOTHER  EVOLUTIONARY  LEAP.

AND  THAT  MAY  VERY  WELL  BE  POSSIBLE,

BECAUSE  NATURE  SEEMS  TO  ALWAYS  CHANGE  AND  WE  REALLY  DON’T

WHAT  NATURE  IS  CAPABLE  OF.

I  MEAN  LOOK,  IT  CREATED  US  DIDN’T  IT.

*

BUT  WHAT  I’M  SAYING  IS,  THAT  IF  SOME  KIND  OF  MAJOR  SHIFT  IN  CONSCIOUSNESS

DOES  HAPPEN

 IT  WILL  BE  THE  FORCE  OF  NATURE  THAT  MADE  IT  HAPPEN.

*

SO  I  DO  BELIEVE  THAT  MAN  DOES  HAVE  FRE  WILL.

BUT  IT  SEEM  TO  ME  THAT  NATURE  HAS  CREATED  A  WAY  TO  EXERCISE  FREE  WILL

THROUGH  US  AND  WITH  US. AND  BY  US,

BUT  NOT  JUST  BY  US.

*

SO  IF  NATURE  HAS  GIVEN  US  FREE  WILL,

HASN’T  IT  IN  A  WAY  REALLY  GIVEN  ITSELF  FREE  WILL.

*

SO  TO  ME  IT’S  OBVIOUS   THAT  NATURE  HAS  CREATED  FREE  WILL.

I  KNOW  WE’D  LIKE  TO  TAKE  ALL  THE  CREDIT  AND  BELIEVE

 WE  SOMEHOW  GAVE  IT  TO  OURSELVES,

OR  EVEN  GIVE  THE  CREDIT  TO  THE  SPIRIT  IN  THE  SKY.

BUT  TO  ME,  GIVING  US  THE  CREDIT  FOR  CREATING  FREE  WILL,

IS  LIKE  SAYING  THE  LEAF  CREATED  THE  TREE.

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LAST  CHAPTER

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AT  TIMES,  AS  INDIVIDUALS WE  MAY  FEEL  VERY  POWERFUL,

BUT  FOR  MOST  THINGS  OR  THE  BIG  THINGS,  WE  SEEM  TO  HAVE

 VERY  LITTLE  POWER  IF  ANY  AT  ALL ….

AND  THAT  MAY  APPEAR  TO  BE  TRUE,

AND  MAYBE  IT  IS  OR MAYBE  IT  ISN’T  THERE’S  NO  WAY  TO  TELL  FOR  SURE.

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BUT  THE  WAY  I  SEE  IT  IS  THAT  ALL  THINGS,  INCLUDING  HUMAN  BEINGS,

 ARE  MORE  LIKE  THE  NATURE  OF  AN  OCEAN.

THE  OCEAN  IS  SO  POWERFUL,  BUT  ONE  DROP  HAS  NO  REAL  POWER  INDIVIDUALLY.

HOWEVER  IT’S  FACT  THAT  THE  OCEAN  IS  MADE  UP  OF  MANY  DROPS.

AND  WITHOUT  THOSE  DROPS  THERE  WOULD  BE  NO  OCEAN.

  SO  I  BELIEVE  WE  ARE  MORE  LIKE  THAT  ONE  DROP  OF  WATER  IN  THE  OCEAN.

BUT  IN  SOME  WAYS  WE  ARE  NO  REALLY  INDIVIDUAL  DROPS.

  WE  ARE  GIANT  WAVE  SO  POWERFUL  THAT  IT  ACTUALLY

CHANGES  THE  COURSE  OF  NATURE.

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SO  AS  INDIVIDUALS  WE  ARE  PART  OF  A  TREMENDOUS  POWER,

 THE  POWER  OF  NATURE,  AND  AS  I  SEE  IT

MAYBE  EVEN  THE  POWER  OF

 THE  ENTIRE  UNIVERSE,  AND  MORE.

AND  TO  ASK  WHAT  WE  ARE  CAPABLE  OF,

YOU  WOULD  HAVE  TO  ASK  WHAT  THE  UNIVERSE  IS  CAPABLE  OF.

 RSL

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